How lonesome this place seems
So I feel my self maturing and growing here at school but I feel like I am leaving all of my friends behind. I guess this is happening because I made friends with younger people. I want to start my adult life. Be more responsible and create a good future for myself. But I love my friends here. It just so hard because I am sick of being the one who always calls and the shoulder that everyone cries on sometimes I just need to have someone to talk to that wont run and tell everyone. life here seems so superficial and I just dont know what to do with my self sometimes. I feel like I have grown into such a bitchy person. I am sorry to those of you who it has affected but I am so sick of all of the stupidness that happens on this campus. I guess I am at a turning point in my life I have to decide if I want to move on or stay where everyone else is. I have made friends here some more closer than the rest and I dont want my friendships that are good and close to disappear. I just want other people to take steps in these friendships to. It takes two people to make it work. Otherwise your not friends your just people that hang out becuase no one else is there. I guess I also want to feel valued as a person. I love everyone more then you know!