It's Not Easy....
To know that you've failed.
At everything.
Not only is this finanacial aid bullshit not working out, but my 2006 tax records have vanished in to thin air. I can't get my dad in any one place to co operate with helping me out and the deadline is right around the corner. Not only that but I have to get the portfolio in some how undamaged, seeing as I can't get down there I have to chance using UPS or FedEx again, which in the past has only ever fucked me. Even if this is done on time and I slip in at the last second, I still can't afford the 400 dollar deposit on the dorms. I have no money.
Which is worsened by the fact my sister needs me to pay some bills, and my cell phone bill is right around the corner. I have a 500 dollar deposit that goes down the shitter if I miss this payment. My job isn't going to pay me enough in time to make a damn bit of difference. All I can do is sit and wait for it to all hit the fan and then sink in to bottomless depression. I've failed, and now that I'm in this god forsaken dead end state I don't stand a chance to succeed.
It's not easy knowing you've failed, and its not easy realizing that without a certain someone, you're nothing.
At everything.
Not only is this finanacial aid bullshit not working out, but my 2006 tax records have vanished in to thin air. I can't get my dad in any one place to co operate with helping me out and the deadline is right around the corner. Not only that but I have to get the portfolio in some how undamaged, seeing as I can't get down there I have to chance using UPS or FedEx again, which in the past has only ever fucked me. Even if this is done on time and I slip in at the last second, I still can't afford the 400 dollar deposit on the dorms. I have no money.
Which is worsened by the fact my sister needs me to pay some bills, and my cell phone bill is right around the corner. I have a 500 dollar deposit that goes down the shitter if I miss this payment. My job isn't going to pay me enough in time to make a damn bit of difference. All I can do is sit and wait for it to all hit the fan and then sink in to bottomless depression. I've failed, and now that I'm in this god forsaken dead end state I don't stand a chance to succeed.
It's not easy knowing you've failed, and its not easy realizing that without a certain someone, you're nothing.