The work of the week is stagnation
Everything is becoming so mundane. Probably because when I'm here...I do nothing. I study, and play computer games, and I wait. I wait for something to happen. I miss the constant exchange of individuals and ideas and emotions throughout my day. I miss all the different faces and interests. I miss you guys, and it sucks that I didn't get to see everyone, or some not nearly enough, because I'm beginning to see that I need it. I need you guys. I need that interaction. I can't sit in my room all day, and I'm fairly certain I'm too weird for most people on campus. I'm considering hanging out with the creepy guy from freshman year because I need to do something. I need many different people around me. I love that at home there's so many people I can be close to. I can't be stagnant and domestic and responsible. I need the chaos and sleepless nights and crazy things to keep me sane. But all I've done is study, and I can feel my mood slowly decline. Nothing to look forward to. Same thing every day. I don't know if i can do that all semester. Everyone I did hang out with has left except for my roomies. I love them dearly. But I grow more and more restless every day. I need to DO something. I need to socialize, and I abhor those 'getting to know you' conversations with new people. Ugh. So, I don't know what to do, but I have to do something.