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I'm in such a shitty mood right now.
It was like this Thursday. It's been like this basically all week (plus, maybe).
I keep feeling like I'm not good enough. I'm not good enough, I don't have time for all the people I love anymore, my sister hates me, and my parents are drunk every night. I don't show enough emotion, I react in the wrong way, and I really hope people don't think that I don't care. I care about people more than I could ever hope to show. I start crying like a gawddamn waterfall when I'm alone and depressed over I don't even know what ... there is emotion for you, but I can't even show the people I care about how much I do care about them. And three of those people are in Oceanside now, where I would have gone if it weren't for them staying out all night and me having to work a fucking seven-hour shift tomorrow. And now they all probably think I'm crazy or bipolar or just being a bitch for nothing tonight. I'm not mad, I'm sad.
I'm pathetic crying over this when there are people starving and dying and who knows what else.
I'm a bitch.
It was like this Thursday. It's been like this basically all week (plus, maybe).
I keep feeling like I'm not good enough. I'm not good enough, I don't have time for all the people I love anymore, my sister hates me, and my parents are drunk every night. I don't show enough emotion, I react in the wrong way, and I really hope people don't think that I don't care. I care about people more than I could ever hope to show. I start crying like a gawddamn waterfall when I'm alone and depressed over I don't even know what ... there is emotion for you, but I can't even show the people I care about how much I do care about them. And three of those people are in Oceanside now, where I would have gone if it weren't for them staying out all night and me having to work a fucking seven-hour shift tomorrow. And now they all probably think I'm crazy or bipolar or just being a bitch for nothing tonight. I'm not mad, I'm sad.
I'm pathetic crying over this when there are people starving and dying and who knows what else.
I'm a bitch.