Ramblings June 12th
So last night was great. I went to Bible study. It was the first night of the women's summer Bible study and I was so excited. I just joined this church recently and I'm not very involved with things and would like to have more friends there.
I think for the first time in my life I felt a little immature. That's a good thing. I always feel more mature than my friends and at times I would like to have someone more experienced than me for a change. But most of them had little kids and were being some serious birth control! Hearing them talk about their whining kids and not knowing what to do, I began to wonder if I would be like that too. I have always been very tough, but will becoming a mother change me? Will I become unsure of myself and distant from my husband? These thoughts make me happy to put off child bearing for a few more years.
You know, my parents did not center their lives around me. They cared about me but I had to brush my own hair and clean my own room... I had to entertain myself. I'm not so sure I understand parents who don't let their children learn responsibility and how to make decisions because they do everything for them. Maybe being a parent will change my opinions as I learn what it's really like.
Back to last night ... I went to see Jocelyn and her new apartment. Seeing her and her fiance just starting out makes me want to do everything I can to help them get settled in. It's so hard when you haven't had time to accumulate lots of "stuff". I have thought about painting them pictures and buying lamps. I know they will be more than fine shortly. She'll be done with school. He will be done with school and he'll be a captain in the army. I just have an uncontrollable urge to help people if I see them in need of anything.
I also went to Buffalo Wild Wings and saw Adrienne and Mandy and a bunch of other folks I've seen hanging around them before. It was fun to hang out and talk about stuff that's not serious for a while.
I think for the first time in my life I felt a little immature. That's a good thing. I always feel more mature than my friends and at times I would like to have someone more experienced than me for a change. But most of them had little kids and were being some serious birth control! Hearing them talk about their whining kids and not knowing what to do, I began to wonder if I would be like that too. I have always been very tough, but will becoming a mother change me? Will I become unsure of myself and distant from my husband? These thoughts make me happy to put off child bearing for a few more years.
You know, my parents did not center their lives around me. They cared about me but I had to brush my own hair and clean my own room... I had to entertain myself. I'm not so sure I understand parents who don't let their children learn responsibility and how to make decisions because they do everything for them. Maybe being a parent will change my opinions as I learn what it's really like.
Back to last night ... I went to see Jocelyn and her new apartment. Seeing her and her fiance just starting out makes me want to do everything I can to help them get settled in. It's so hard when you haven't had time to accumulate lots of "stuff". I have thought about painting them pictures and buying lamps. I know they will be more than fine shortly. She'll be done with school. He will be done with school and he'll be a captain in the army. I just have an uncontrollable urge to help people if I see them in need of anything.
I also went to Buffalo Wild Wings and saw Adrienne and Mandy and a bunch of other folks I've seen hanging around them before. It was fun to hang out and talk about stuff that's not serious for a while.