I want it GONE!
I recently met a girl that I was hoping to have a relationship with I met her online and we have chatted on the phone and were going to meet tonight but today when we spoke on the phone she asked me the question I always dread. "So how big is your cock?" In those six words she ended any possibility of ever meeting me.
Every time I meet a girl it is always the same. They focus on the one part of me I hate the most, my cock! I hate it! I want it gone! If I were a little crazier I would walk across the room right now and amputate it myself.
When someone looks at a Trans girl all they see is a chick with a dick! They are then either turned on by the thought or they are turned off by it. If they are turned off then they are most certainly not interested in me and if they are turned on then they are interested in me for all the wrong reasons. Grrrrr I want this fucking thing off of me NOW!!!!! I am never going to be happy until it is gone.
Do I ask for these women to be attracted to me? NO! Do I approach them for romance? No! Yet it's me that gets rejected time and time again the instant they figure out that my dick is off limits. I can't take it anymore. I am frustrated and don't know what to do. I feel I will never find love until I am Post-op and at the rate I am making money that will be when I'm 98. I could move away to B/C. Where the provincial health plan will cover it but to do that I will have to leave behind all my friends and family and go start over in a town where I don't know anyone and that thought terrifies me. It is loneliness that I am trying to escape after all.
Is it so wrong to want to be loved for my mind and soul? Why does everyone always focus on the physical so much? Whoever said that the brain was the most powerful sexual organ obviously had their brain so far up their ass that it brought them to orgasm by prostate stimulation.
I dunno I better figure out what I'm going to do with myself soon or I'm going to go totally crazy
well im off to cry for a bit!
Every time I meet a girl it is always the same. They focus on the one part of me I hate the most, my cock! I hate it! I want it gone! If I were a little crazier I would walk across the room right now and amputate it myself.
When someone looks at a Trans girl all they see is a chick with a dick! They are then either turned on by the thought or they are turned off by it. If they are turned off then they are most certainly not interested in me and if they are turned on then they are interested in me for all the wrong reasons. Grrrrr I want this fucking thing off of me NOW!!!!! I am never going to be happy until it is gone.
Do I ask for these women to be attracted to me? NO! Do I approach them for romance? No! Yet it's me that gets rejected time and time again the instant they figure out that my dick is off limits. I can't take it anymore. I am frustrated and don't know what to do. I feel I will never find love until I am Post-op and at the rate I am making money that will be when I'm 98. I could move away to B/C. Where the provincial health plan will cover it but to do that I will have to leave behind all my friends and family and go start over in a town where I don't know anyone and that thought terrifies me. It is loneliness that I am trying to escape after all.
Is it so wrong to want to be loved for my mind and soul? Why does everyone always focus on the physical so much? Whoever said that the brain was the most powerful sexual organ obviously had their brain so far up their ass that it brought them to orgasm by prostate stimulation.
I dunno I better figure out what I'm going to do with myself soon or I'm going to go totally crazy
well im off to cry for a bit!