detransitioning!

[renee_tdot_ts]

Tomorrow I am going out and getting a boy haircut and am going to go off hormones. I just have to find a way to tell the people I have commited performances to, that I am not going to be there. I also will not be answering my phone for a while so please don't try to reach me. I just want everyone to know that I love them and am safe. I m jut in a

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Hey,

[tyresias]

For what it's worth, I'd like to say the following. I want to preface it by saying that I will at the end of the day respect your wishes and do my very best to call you by whichever name/pronouns you choose/prefer.

I hope you will revisit your decision before going through with the haircut. (the effects of hormones won't go away as fast as scissors will end your current haircut) Like most other trannies, I held a fear like yours when I began hormones. I was fairly "popular" (so to speak) as a "dyke" (pre-everything t-boi). The girl I dated shortly after going on T thoguht that she could handle it but the minute anyone mistook her for a straight girl she was not okay. Our relationship was hard on me because she is a les-dyke (vs. a bi-dyke) and it was slowly ripping my heart out. The point is, only you know who you are and what you can deal with. But if you are the girl you've always told me you are, "half living" will not work.
Before going on T and after I broke up with my ex I came to terms with the possibility of being single for the rest of my life. Now granted a null sex drive due to depression really helps but none the less. I realised I'd rather be single and male than taken and female. I was single for 2 years after my ex and I broke up before I met my boyfriend.
Don't mistake this to mean that I would judge you if you'd rather be taken and male then single and female. We all have our own level and type of dysphoria. You alone knows best how much of it you can handle and how far or not you are willing to go to handle your dysphoria. I'm just saying you need to balance your dysphoria with your need to be in a relationship. And know that while it may seem ludicrous, there are more than a few people out there who do and will love you for the girl you already are. I didn't think anyone would want a half-done guy but the odd straight girl and even (but none the less existing) odder gay guy have proven me wrong.

Cheers,

M