i finally did it...
i finally put away all of my matt stuff...
i went through my comp and gathered the many many pics i had of us and put them on a disk....then i got all the printed pics and letters, and drawings and stuff and put it in my matt box.
i think it took me so long cuz i thought maybe there was something there still... i guess i was keeping my hopes up...but im over that...its put away and im putting it all behind me
it was fun, rough, but its over for good, and i have no more hopes, im happy
and i regret nothing, thats the most important thing to me, no regrets
ahh, i needed this:
"you need amanda time to realize how cool you are by yourself and you'll realize that all you need is you and your friends"
"in other words you don't need a dude to make you happy cuz you'll realize that you make you happy and your friends make you happy"
"and thats the girl i love, amanda, cuz shes a american bad ass!"
haha, thanks for that much needed conversation!