Ages...
Well, here I am, back down to my journal... this is a place i go when i feel like shit.
maybe i should keep it going, it could be healthy...you know write be healthy.
i hate my parents. all i ask is to be left alone. but no we must pound and tourcher renee until she tells us her deepest darkest secrets...i've told them everything i fucking know. what more do they want, i'll make up lies just to make them happy, they don't understand. i hate parents, my mom even locked me out of the house untill i told her why i wwasn't going to classes, which she already knew, so i just told her that the kids are teasing me because i have small hands...(TOTALLY MADE UP) but hey it made her happy. i think i belone in a hospital. nobody cares about me i'm jsut so alone in the world, the stupid school counciller who i hate, but eventually turn too in times of need has been sick...my best friends in the mental hospital and i can't talk to her..because i could put ideas in her head. WTF. life sucks, and man do i feel alone.
On the other hand. I went to all my classes today...YAY! i had a good weekend skiing and i got paid:) i have to love ski instructing! christmas is comming up... i think its overratted all people care about is gifts.
and yes i watch survivor and DAMN sandra won, i wanted Darrah to win, and next seasons going to be allstars (previous survivor people)i don't know why i watch the show i really tend to hate it, but my sister watches it and i have nothing better to do then sit in front of a tv and attempt to stop my mind from racing.
i now belive that it is physically impossible to stop your mind from thinking about what your thinking about...because you thinking that you not thinking but your really thinking about what your thinkning amd so on....i'm going insane
maybe i should keep it going, it could be healthy...you know write be healthy.
i hate my parents. all i ask is to be left alone. but no we must pound and tourcher renee until she tells us her deepest darkest secrets...i've told them everything i fucking know. what more do they want, i'll make up lies just to make them happy, they don't understand. i hate parents, my mom even locked me out of the house untill i told her why i wwasn't going to classes, which she already knew, so i just told her that the kids are teasing me because i have small hands...(TOTALLY MADE UP) but hey it made her happy. i think i belone in a hospital. nobody cares about me i'm jsut so alone in the world, the stupid school counciller who i hate, but eventually turn too in times of need has been sick...my best friends in the mental hospital and i can't talk to her..because i could put ideas in her head. WTF. life sucks, and man do i feel alone.
On the other hand. I went to all my classes today...YAY! i had a good weekend skiing and i got paid:) i have to love ski instructing! christmas is comming up... i think its overratted all people care about is gifts.
and yes i watch survivor and DAMN sandra won, i wanted Darrah to win, and next seasons going to be allstars (previous survivor people)i don't know why i watch the show i really tend to hate it, but my sister watches it and i have nothing better to do then sit in front of a tv and attempt to stop my mind from racing.
i now belive that it is physically impossible to stop your mind from thinking about what your thinking about...because you thinking that you not thinking but your really thinking about what your thinkning amd so on....i'm going insane