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i'm so fucked in the head right now

friends talking shit

i feel like i'm hurting someone just by trying to be their friend

i want to move on

but i cant

i fucking hate this.

i'm starting to wonder if i should just leave all this mess behind and go home. but i cant
i refuse to turn and run home with my tail between my legs like a little bitch.

things have happened, for the better? maybe.
for a minute i felt really great about myself. and then i wondered if i had made a mistake
i wondered if i just set myself up

regardless of the outcome i feel like nothing but a fuckup right now.

i want to fall asleep for a month and just hope this all goes away. hope that i didn't just ruin friendships because i tried to make a change.