Comments | renara_paris: doo doo-dee-doo..

renara_paris

doo doo-dee-doo..

Jul 26, 2005 23:33

*stands outside the captain's quarters, ringing doorchime*

*rocks back and forth on balls of feet, anxious*

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henry_reed July 27 2005, 06:13:02 UTC

::wrinkles nose at her, poking around the controls but NOT touching anything::

Gah, why don't you just kiss it and get it over with.

::swivels the seat around just behind her::

renara_paris July 27 2005, 06:13:41 UTC

*rolls eyes and smiles*

henry_reed July 27 2005, 06:15:39 UTC

::smiles back::

::plops into the seat, checking out the sides and back::

They making these smaller? I used to get swallowed up in it.

renara_paris July 27 2005, 06:16:51 UTC

*snorts* Yes. They've decided to start making them smaller to confuse you.

henry_reed July 27 2005, 06:21:24 UTC

::shoots her a look::

What'd they do-- ::eyes narrow, kicks at her chair::

You better start your similating.

::buckles the restraint, head bending back as looks around the controls::

This is so neat. What's it like to fly? I mean, to actually be the one to fly?

renara_paris July 27 2005, 06:23:06 UTC

It's... freeing.

henry_reed July 27 2005, 06:24:21 UTC

::eyes keep scanning everything around::

Yeah? Free from what?

renara_paris July 27 2005, 06:27:39 UTC

Everything. Thoughts... voices... influence.

It's like... I'm in complete control. I don't have to be anyone but myself, I don't have to feel anything but what I feel on the inside.

henry_reed July 27 2005, 06:35:08 UTC

::leans forward, elbows on knees so can see her better::

Yeah... must be kinda hard for you, hearing everyone. Dad doesn't pop in much any more... my sister's okay about it, we talk now and then but... I used to want to hear more, but now... dunno.

::shrugs::

So it gets quiet out there for you?

renara_paris July 27 2005, 06:36:14 UTC

It's sort of like actual noise- the further you get from the source, the less you hear.

henry_reed July 27 2005, 06:42:07 UTC

::laughs a little, lowering head::

Then I don't think you want me to navigate. I talk a lot.

renara_paris July 27 2005, 07:04:09 UTC

*chuckles* I don't mind you.

henry_reed July 27 2005, 07:13:58 UTC

Good, 'cause you're sorta kinda stuck with me, at least while we're still on Enterprise.

::leans back against the chair, bouncing slightly against the back::

::takes a deep breath, looking out the viewport at the inside of the shuttle bay::

Nara? You ever not wanna feel what you feel inside? I mean, you said you can get away from the outside. But how...

...

How do you get away from what's inside of you? If you don't like it?

renara_paris July 27 2005, 07:15:12 UTC

*stops, glancing at him, puzzled* What don't you like?

henry_reed July 27 2005, 07:23:35 UTC

::gets quiet, shrugs::

I'm scared.

I'm not supposed to be scared, but I am. Dad says I need to be brave about pop, 'cause it'll help him. Or that it's okay to be scared but I should still be brave, and I don't even know what the hell that means. I told him I knew, and sometimes I think I know but then...

... then I just get scared all over again and I don't want to be, I don't want to feel all that.

::pets Porthos as the dog's head leans over Henry's leg::

I don't know how to... turn it all off. It's all out of control.

renara_paris July 27 2005, 07:31:07 UTC

That's the kind of thing you can't turn off.

But at the same time, it's not entirely bad. Being scared makes you stronger. We would never know what was really important in life without being scared- what's worth the risk of living.

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