Looking back..
It's funny how we get so totally wrapped up in other people's lives that we don't know what to do with ourselves when they stop sharing with us all the juicy details.
Haha, I was looking back on really old entries that I wrote, ranting about Aaron R. and Alyssa, which then made me think about others I had written about Steve V. I realized how ridiculously wrapped up in other people's business I was... I guess my life wasn't interesting enough, I had to bring on everyone else's drama too. Haha.
I wrote this to Aaron a long time ago...:
Aaron-
I guess I decided that I'm in the right mood for that sappy email... ha!
Part 1:
I dunno... I just keep thinking about how cool it is that you called me... that you call me... it's just so unreal... I mean I've pictured it in my head so many times, and pictured holding your hand, being held by you, thought about what it would feel like, but it's beyond anything I could have ever imagined. The feeling is way more intense than I ever thought it would be. Plus, it's so nice to just sit there talking to you... or even not talking to you.. you know, when we just sit there saying nothing... it's so nice to just sit there, and not talk and have the comfort of knowing that you're there, it makes me so happy. I haven't been this happy in a long time. I'm so blessed.
Laura
It's crazy to read that and then think about how that's exactly how I feel now, three years later. Not exactly that it seems crazy that he calls me, or holds my hand, I'm pretty used to that by now. But more that I was completely content just sitting with him, not speaking. Because 100% of me still feels that way. In fact, I think just sitting and cuddling with him is the most fullfilling thing he and I can do together. We don't have to say a single word to one another and yet for some reason I feel more content then ever. Don't get me wrong though, I love it when he and I get into a really good conversation, or are just being simply ridiculous. But there's just something about the comfort of not feeling obligated to say something to one another. It's so gratifying.
I have been hanging out a lot more with Lindsay and Leah lately, it's been really good. Normally I would get annoyed or bored of hanging out with Lindsay especially, but I've just been so excited to see her everytime. She's grown up a lot lately, and she's a lot easier to talk to. I don't feel anymore that I need to chose my words carefully, I'm no longer walking on eggshells. I guess we both had a lot to learn and we both needed the time away from each other. It's totally true that we've grown even closer because of it. And I can't even begin to explain how much fun I have had with Leah lately either. I think that each of us has felt a bit of a fight over Lindsay's friendship, though neither of us ever wanted it to be that way. I'm just glad we have moved beyond that point in our lives, and that we're finally at the point where we all three can get together and enjoy each others company. As well as the company of little baby Topher (Christopher, that is). I'm so very thankful that God has put these girls back into my life. And it hasn't been a slow, gradual process. He's just almost literally thrown them back into my life. They are still two of my favorite people, and I love them oh so very much!
Haha, I was looking back on really old entries that I wrote, ranting about Aaron R. and Alyssa, which then made me think about others I had written about Steve V. I realized how ridiculously wrapped up in other people's business I was... I guess my life wasn't interesting enough, I had to bring on everyone else's drama too. Haha.
I wrote this to Aaron a long time ago...:
Aaron-
I guess I decided that I'm in the right mood for that sappy email... ha!
Part 1:
I dunno... I just keep thinking about how cool it is that you called me... that you call me... it's just so unreal... I mean I've pictured it in my head so many times, and pictured holding your hand, being held by you, thought about what it would feel like, but it's beyond anything I could have ever imagined. The feeling is way more intense than I ever thought it would be. Plus, it's so nice to just sit there talking to you... or even not talking to you.. you know, when we just sit there saying nothing... it's so nice to just sit there, and not talk and have the comfort of knowing that you're there, it makes me so happy. I haven't been this happy in a long time. I'm so blessed.
Laura
It's crazy to read that and then think about how that's exactly how I feel now, three years later. Not exactly that it seems crazy that he calls me, or holds my hand, I'm pretty used to that by now. But more that I was completely content just sitting with him, not speaking. Because 100% of me still feels that way. In fact, I think just sitting and cuddling with him is the most fullfilling thing he and I can do together. We don't have to say a single word to one another and yet for some reason I feel more content then ever. Don't get me wrong though, I love it when he and I get into a really good conversation, or are just being simply ridiculous. But there's just something about the comfort of not feeling obligated to say something to one another. It's so gratifying.
I have been hanging out a lot more with Lindsay and Leah lately, it's been really good. Normally I would get annoyed or bored of hanging out with Lindsay especially, but I've just been so excited to see her everytime. She's grown up a lot lately, and she's a lot easier to talk to. I don't feel anymore that I need to chose my words carefully, I'm no longer walking on eggshells. I guess we both had a lot to learn and we both needed the time away from each other. It's totally true that we've grown even closer because of it. And I can't even begin to explain how much fun I have had with Leah lately either. I think that each of us has felt a bit of a fight over Lindsay's friendship, though neither of us ever wanted it to be that way. I'm just glad we have moved beyond that point in our lives, and that we're finally at the point where we all three can get together and enjoy each others company. As well as the company of little baby Topher (Christopher, that is). I'm so very thankful that God has put these girls back into my life. And it hasn't been a slow, gradual process. He's just almost literally thrown them back into my life. They are still two of my favorite people, and I love them oh so very much!