My heart is breaking ...

[renajo]

Hello all. Just thought I'd update cause I have some things on my mind that need to be said before I go insane or something. Yeah, I'm not allowed to talk to my boyfriend right now which sucks majorly. Carlos is mad at me and wants us to break up and so therefore he won't let me speak to Scottie or Scottie speak to me. It's ridiculous and stupid I know, but what can I do? Nothing. Carlos has all control, just the way that he wants it. I don't know anymore. I do know that I love Scottie, with all of my heart. I guess I'll just have to suck it up and hopefully it'll turn out okay. I can only pray. Anyways .. I'm sick right now and have no clue what's wrong with me. I should go see the doctor, but I don't think I will. I'm sure it'll pass or something. Well, Sara is telling me something and I'm afraid of what it's gonna be so I'm gonna go. Bye.

I Love You Scottie