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Dear Journal,
It's almost time to go to work again, some days this song sums up how I feel about my life. I guess I have not found peace of mind, this will be a on going new years resolution... I sometimes get frustrated at Mogens and wonder if we can make it, when he is so fast grown in his drinking and smoking habits. It bugs the shit out of me that he is only 35 and has a bad smokers cough I guess. I have told him I couldn't cope with having to care for another (future husband) if he got cancer or ended in a wheel chair. He does absolutely nothing to take care of himself, neither do the others in his family. There are 4 alcoholics in their family. Why do I feel attracted to this sort of man, my mother dropped my dad for a alcoholic, how do I change the pattern or alert my self to making a wrong choice? Life is so difficult and full of traps at times...
Life For Rent
I haven't really ever found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize that once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind
that your heart ain't exactly breaking
It's just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don't lean to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
I've always thought
that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone
and live my life more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me
It's just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive
If my life is for rent...
It's almost time to go to work again, some days this song sums up how I feel about my life. I guess I have not found peace of mind, this will be a on going new years resolution... I sometimes get frustrated at Mogens and wonder if we can make it, when he is so fast grown in his drinking and smoking habits. It bugs the shit out of me that he is only 35 and has a bad smokers cough I guess. I have told him I couldn't cope with having to care for another (future husband) if he got cancer or ended in a wheel chair. He does absolutely nothing to take care of himself, neither do the others in his family. There are 4 alcoholics in their family. Why do I feel attracted to this sort of man, my mother dropped my dad for a alcoholic, how do I change the pattern or alert my self to making a wrong choice? Life is so difficult and full of traps at times...
Life For Rent
I haven't really ever found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize that once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind
that your heart ain't exactly breaking
It's just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don't lean to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
I've always thought
that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone
and live my life more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me
It's just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive
If my life is for rent...