It happens eventually.
As you guys already know, I rarely if ever use this livejournal account of mine. Thank god it's free, neh? I hardly use it because I hardly have anything to say. I really don't talk about my private life much to anyone at all, not that there is much to talk about. The rest of my life is pretty boring as well just school, work and some video games. Occasionally I'l post a drawing I've done as most of you seem marginally interested in it. (There is another one in the works. Soon, I hopes.) But on occasion I use this to rant about something that's really been bothering me. This is, kinda, another one of those posts.
So once again, I've been really out of sorts for the past few days. Just a kind of general feeling of not knowing what the hell I'm doing and that what I am doing isn't right. *Shrugs* It goes a lot deeper then then, but that's about as well as I can explain it. This post isn't one to garner sympathy or anything of that sort. Instead, the purposes are a lot more selfish. I'm going to ask something of you I don't think I could readily answer for anyone else. This is probably because I don't think/look too closely at my friends, and I try my best to not judge any of them. I think I succeed for the most part, but that's neither here nor there.
My request for you guys is this: How would you change me? Or to poise it differently, what aspects of my life/who I am do you think I should change and how?
I know that this is a very hard question to answer, and I know that many of your first responses would be something along the lines of "we like you just fine the way you are" or "it's your life, not ours, we can't tell you how to run it". I am asking that you forgo any of these kinds of answers and instead focus on the question itself. Take as much time as you need to answer, any insight is helpful at this point.