Smoking Log: Day One
I don't know if I'm going to be able to write a log everyday, but day one (logically) seemed a good place to start.
After Cola's passing, Fox demanded that I quit smoking. A few people important to me have asked that I quit, Fox and my mother being the most prevalent of them. I honestly cannot refuse anything that Fox asks of me, so I decided that I would. On top of that, it has really been bugging me lately, as I have to take time out of my life to smoke. That's a waste of time I could be using to thin myself up a bit ( I still have that ten or so pounds to make vanish. I'm thinking of hiring a magician.), or to try getting laid. Or raiding in WoW. You know, things that I actually want to do.
So, I got the patches (name brand, thank you very much.) on the medium setting, because even though I'm a clove smoker, I don't normally smoke ten cigarettes a day, unless I'm partying or really stressed out. So, according to my math, and the recommendations, I start at level 2.
My last stogie was at 4 a.m.
I out the patch on just before bedtime, and had wildly vivid dreams. Like, mess your sense of reality up sort of vivid. The brochure warns about this, and say to not wear it at night if that happens, but it also says to wear it at night if you have a craving when you wake up, which is the strongest time for my cravings. For those of us with both, I guess we just have to "man up" and go with it, one way or another.
I am choosing to sleep with it. It might make for a really interesting sex-dream experience. Or a truly terrifying nightmare. Both sound fun.
To distract myself, I made sure that day one was also a D&D day, so I would be focusing on running a smooth and fun game for my friends. I was doing really well til my first craving at around five p.m. That's thirteen hours of no cravings, not including the fuckery of my dreamtime. I made it through that craving, and now five hours later, I am having another one.
I am headachey and moody, and I almost snapped at a baby, but it, so far, is not as bad as I thought it would be. I was preparing for the worst. Buying bleach to clean up blood sort of preparing for the worst.
So far, it's okay.
Really funny thing is that one of my players started her period today, and was also a little moody. I feel bad about her husband, who truly means well and is a sweet and wonderful guy, who sat in between us. He flinched a few times. :)
So, good luck to me!
After Cola's passing, Fox demanded that I quit smoking. A few people important to me have asked that I quit, Fox and my mother being the most prevalent of them. I honestly cannot refuse anything that Fox asks of me, so I decided that I would. On top of that, it has really been bugging me lately, as I have to take time out of my life to smoke. That's a waste of time I could be using to thin myself up a bit ( I still have that ten or so pounds to make vanish. I'm thinking of hiring a magician.), or to try getting laid. Or raiding in WoW. You know, things that I actually want to do.
So, I got the patches (name brand, thank you very much.) on the medium setting, because even though I'm a clove smoker, I don't normally smoke ten cigarettes a day, unless I'm partying or really stressed out. So, according to my math, and the recommendations, I start at level 2.
My last stogie was at 4 a.m.
I out the patch on just before bedtime, and had wildly vivid dreams. Like, mess your sense of reality up sort of vivid. The brochure warns about this, and say to not wear it at night if that happens, but it also says to wear it at night if you have a craving when you wake up, which is the strongest time for my cravings. For those of us with both, I guess we just have to "man up" and go with it, one way or another.
I am choosing to sleep with it. It might make for a really interesting sex-dream experience. Or a truly terrifying nightmare. Both sound fun.
To distract myself, I made sure that day one was also a D&D day, so I would be focusing on running a smooth and fun game for my friends. I was doing really well til my first craving at around five p.m. That's thirteen hours of no cravings, not including the fuckery of my dreamtime. I made it through that craving, and now five hours later, I am having another one.
I am headachey and moody, and I almost snapped at a baby, but it, so far, is not as bad as I thought it would be. I was preparing for the worst. Buying bleach to clean up blood sort of preparing for the worst.
So far, it's okay.
Really funny thing is that one of my players started her period today, and was also a little moody. I feel bad about her husband, who truly means well and is a sweet and wonderful guy, who sat in between us. He flinched a few times. :)
So, good luck to me!