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I don't even know why I'm posting here. Not like anyone reads it. Not enough awesomeness, I guess.
What is so wrong with me that I don't even get any messages from the dating site I'm on, other than one IM from some guy twice my age? I'd like to think that I'm not -that- hideous. But who knows.
I just...don't want to be alone. At all. And I suck.
Because I think the one guy who I actually like, but was afraid to tell him so, now has a girlfriend. I tried to tell myself it was no big deal, that we had nothing to really connect with, that it was just physical wanting on my part, but... then why am I sitting here trying not to cry because of it?
Good luck on me finding someone else. I hardly ever get out, because I don't want to be alone in the city by myself...
I don't know what to do.
Just...please. Someone tell me what I'm doing wrong.
...don't I deserve to be loved, too?
What is so wrong with me that I don't even get any messages from the dating site I'm on, other than one IM from some guy twice my age? I'd like to think that I'm not -that- hideous. But who knows.
I just...don't want to be alone. At all. And I suck.
Because I think the one guy who I actually like, but was afraid to tell him so, now has a girlfriend. I tried to tell myself it was no big deal, that we had nothing to really connect with, that it was just physical wanting on my part, but... then why am I sitting here trying not to cry because of it?
Good luck on me finding someone else. I hardly ever get out, because I don't want to be alone in the city by myself...
I don't know what to do.
Just...please. Someone tell me what I'm doing wrong.
...don't I deserve to be loved, too?