Futures
Life always has more in store than I can ever think of in the moment. I have been reaching out and checking on bridges I burned, hard choices I made, and doing my best to cut the crap from my life.
After all the pain I put myself through, all the blessings I ignored, all the doubt I slugged through, I have found that people are actually proud of me. Recently, I have heard a few things that I never thought I would hear, and that I strive so hard to be, that I feel that I can never match the words with my actions:
-mature for my age
-hard working
-respectful
-someone to look up to
-someone worthy of respect
-trustworthy
-i am a good man
-having me as a friend is a blessing
-honored to be my friend
-someone who has turned out to be a great friend
-a strong individual
these are all things i strive for, and i think i will always doubt myself in them. i just need to make sure that i do not dishonor other's estemation of me. not that i wont ever let them down, but that i need to respect their feelings for me.
weird feeling.
After all the pain I put myself through, all the blessings I ignored, all the doubt I slugged through, I have found that people are actually proud of me. Recently, I have heard a few things that I never thought I would hear, and that I strive so hard to be, that I feel that I can never match the words with my actions:
-mature for my age
-hard working
-respectful
-someone to look up to
-someone worthy of respect
-trustworthy
-i am a good man
-having me as a friend is a blessing
-honored to be my friend
-someone who has turned out to be a great friend
-a strong individual
these are all things i strive for, and i think i will always doubt myself in them. i just need to make sure that i do not dishonor other's estemation of me. not that i wont ever let them down, but that i need to respect their feelings for me.
weird feeling.