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I'm so sick and tired of High School. More importantly High School guys. They make me want to shoot myself in the head. The guy I like... only guy that I can stand at highschool... is already taken. The rest of them are just *insignifcant little fucks* not to quote Boondock Saints or anything. Fuck. I keep thinking back to this summer. When I was truely happy. Everything would be so much easier if Madison was around. But then again it could be worse. I could be dead. Oh wait maybe that wouldnt be worse.
Convo:
maddie205: how do u make ureself stop liking a guy
emuchicklet: If I knew the answer to that, trust me Id be a lot happier right now.
maddie205: who cant u get over
emuchicklet: Madison
maddie205: oh
emuchicklet: Just having him as the measuring to tape to the rest of the world makes everything seem not good enough. Thus fucking up any chance to connect with another guy.
maddie205: yeah, trust me i feel exactly the same
maddie205: its sucks so ooooooo bad
emuchicklet: I know. I mean its hard as hell... its been like 4 months since Mad left and Im still not over it
maddie205: i know what u mean. every guy i compare to him its not the same, and when i do stuff w/ guys its not the same and i just want him back, but i dont wanna tell him how i feel cuz i dont want to scare him away and ruin any freindship we might have
maddie205: its driving me insane
maddie205: ive been making it out like im over him but im not and its terrible cuz i know he doesnt feel the same way
emuchicklet: exactly now you know how fucking hard it is. Just try not to deny your real feelings cause if you do that then it takes even longer
maddie205: i thought i was starting to get over him...but now that i saw him i just fell back in love with him, and now i fucking have to see him at school every day
Why does being a girl suck so very much. I just will resort to killing myself if I have to stay at Wilson next year. Pray that I get the Germany Scholarship.
Convo:
maddie205: how do u make ureself stop liking a guy
emuchicklet: If I knew the answer to that, trust me Id be a lot happier right now.
maddie205: who cant u get over
emuchicklet: Madison
maddie205: oh
emuchicklet: Just having him as the measuring to tape to the rest of the world makes everything seem not good enough. Thus fucking up any chance to connect with another guy.
maddie205: yeah, trust me i feel exactly the same
maddie205: its sucks so ooooooo bad
emuchicklet: I know. I mean its hard as hell... its been like 4 months since Mad left and Im still not over it
maddie205: i know what u mean. every guy i compare to him its not the same, and when i do stuff w/ guys its not the same and i just want him back, but i dont wanna tell him how i feel cuz i dont want to scare him away and ruin any freindship we might have
maddie205: its driving me insane
maddie205: ive been making it out like im over him but im not and its terrible cuz i know he doesnt feel the same way
emuchicklet: exactly now you know how fucking hard it is. Just try not to deny your real feelings cause if you do that then it takes even longer
maddie205: i thought i was starting to get over him...but now that i saw him i just fell back in love with him, and now i fucking have to see him at school every day
Why does being a girl suck so very much. I just will resort to killing myself if I have to stay at Wilson next year. Pray that I get the Germany Scholarship.