"...that right here right now, you're exactly where you're supposed to be"
Life is, in turns, fab and insane.
On Sunday Max taught Sam how to pretend to get drunk. Good times. Then I had to go and wait with Andrea while our crazy rich employers tried to help her start her stalled car after a babysitting job gone awry. Paul Scott just kept asking us if he looked gay and he and Jen kept arguing about everything (Paul Scott: You're a retard. Jen: Hey, I make babies, I don't fix cars. Paul Scott: God knows that's true!).
Last night my mom had pulled a bunch of my boxes from the attic and requested I move them to my house. Andrea and I had a fab time looking at old pictures and relics. We have lived a funny, funny life my friend.
I wish I would have stopped with the older boxes though. Moving into the more recent stuff (early high school)really brought me down. I had forgotten how sad and scary things were there for a while. Much of it I brought on myself because of the choices I made but it still freaks me out a little how unhealthy things got, and for how long, and how little of it I ever told anyone about. I definitely still have a tendency to get unaccountably depressed. Of course, its much much better now. Doing what I want to in life, having this house and my girls and of course letting Jesus help me out totally makes all the difference, but sometimes I get really worried I could slip back into all of that again. Yuck. Sorry to get intense there, but I haven't been able to shake the feeling all day. I wish he wouldn't have chosen today to be the day he called after not speaking for two months. Anyhow....
Katy got a job. Yay!!! It is much more difficult and challenging then she was led to believe. I am totally proud of her for sticking to her guns. She may choose not to stay in the longer run, but I think a lot of people would have been out of there the first day with the kind of crap that was going down. I love how much Katy can surprise and impress me. I tend to think of her a certain way and assume she will always fit my view of her. Kick ass Kate!
Emerson told me this week that she "only kisses hotties". I laughed for 20 years. Little girls rule.
My iPod has made me realize that all of my music is totally crap. It's really sad that when I put it on shuffle it often will play the same Hanson song more than once in a row, because there are so many versions of the same song and the iPod doesn't realize that If Only(UAL), If Only(L&E) and If Only(TTA) are actually the same song. Liking Hanson is kind of a curse I think.
Hannah called me this week and left me a message telling me to listen to the Bon Jovi song "Thank you for loving me" and think about it in terms of Jesus. Hannah seeing God in Bon Jovi songs is so wonderfully appropriate and good. It made me laugh and feel really happy.
How sad am I that Nick got kicked off Project Runway tonight? He was the first one on this season that I really liked. I am literally upset by this, which is pretty sad.
Maddie, I realized after you left that the waitress on Lost (Zelda from Sabrina) is Kate's mom. How crazy is that?? Lost and Project Runway are really the only shows worth watching. And Daily Show and Colbert Report, but that should go without saying. P.S. Do you remember whose song was Save Me?
OK, I have school tomorrow and a million things to get done so that my busy Friday and Saturday won't actually kill me. Though it is not yet 3:30, this should mean bed for me! Mich is home tomorrow!
On Sunday Max taught Sam how to pretend to get drunk. Good times. Then I had to go and wait with Andrea while our crazy rich employers tried to help her start her stalled car after a babysitting job gone awry. Paul Scott just kept asking us if he looked gay and he and Jen kept arguing about everything (Paul Scott: You're a retard. Jen: Hey, I make babies, I don't fix cars. Paul Scott: God knows that's true!).
Last night my mom had pulled a bunch of my boxes from the attic and requested I move them to my house. Andrea and I had a fab time looking at old pictures and relics. We have lived a funny, funny life my friend.
I wish I would have stopped with the older boxes though. Moving into the more recent stuff (early high school)really brought me down. I had forgotten how sad and scary things were there for a while. Much of it I brought on myself because of the choices I made but it still freaks me out a little how unhealthy things got, and for how long, and how little of it I ever told anyone about. I definitely still have a tendency to get unaccountably depressed. Of course, its much much better now. Doing what I want to in life, having this house and my girls and of course letting Jesus help me out totally makes all the difference, but sometimes I get really worried I could slip back into all of that again. Yuck. Sorry to get intense there, but I haven't been able to shake the feeling all day. I wish he wouldn't have chosen today to be the day he called after not speaking for two months. Anyhow....
Katy got a job. Yay!!! It is much more difficult and challenging then she was led to believe. I am totally proud of her for sticking to her guns. She may choose not to stay in the longer run, but I think a lot of people would have been out of there the first day with the kind of crap that was going down. I love how much Katy can surprise and impress me. I tend to think of her a certain way and assume she will always fit my view of her. Kick ass Kate!
Emerson told me this week that she "only kisses hotties". I laughed for 20 years. Little girls rule.
My iPod has made me realize that all of my music is totally crap. It's really sad that when I put it on shuffle it often will play the same Hanson song more than once in a row, because there are so many versions of the same song and the iPod doesn't realize that If Only(UAL), If Only(L&E) and If Only(TTA) are actually the same song. Liking Hanson is kind of a curse I think.
Hannah called me this week and left me a message telling me to listen to the Bon Jovi song "Thank you for loving me" and think about it in terms of Jesus. Hannah seeing God in Bon Jovi songs is so wonderfully appropriate and good. It made me laugh and feel really happy.
How sad am I that Nick got kicked off Project Runway tonight? He was the first one on this season that I really liked. I am literally upset by this, which is pretty sad.
Maddie, I realized after you left that the waitress on Lost (Zelda from Sabrina) is Kate's mom. How crazy is that?? Lost and Project Runway are really the only shows worth watching. And Daily Show and Colbert Report, but that should go without saying. P.S. Do you remember whose song was Save Me?
OK, I have school tomorrow and a million things to get done so that my busy Friday and Saturday won't actually kill me. Though it is not yet 3:30, this should mean bed for me! Mich is home tomorrow!