Sad and Cold
I have been in such a down mood lately. I know very well that if I wasn't so medicated that I would just break down crying. I am so stressed out about school work because I am still terribly behind from before fall break. My car is broken and it wasn't even my doing. I am absolutely freezing and can not get warm not matter what I do. I am always tired and can never seem to be able to take a nap or anything. It seems like the only thing that is going well right now is my swimming and that just helps me release all the stress that I have. It the water was actually above 75 degrees, it would be more pleasant. It is really hard to stay afloat when you can't feel your arms or legs.
I am still sad and upset about Adam and would do anything to have him back. I am just hoping that he will one day soon find out what he lost and remember all the good times we had. I still want him back, I just don't think that he is going to come back now. I just miss him so much. Not only did I loose the one person I loved the most, but I lost my best friend who I could always rely on. Now, I have no one. I still believe that we belong together and that Adam just needs to discover that for himself and this is how he has to.
I am still sad and upset about Adam and would do anything to have him back. I am just hoping that he will one day soon find out what he lost and remember all the good times we had. I still want him back, I just don't think that he is going to come back now. I just miss him so much. Not only did I loose the one person I loved the most, but I lost my best friend who I could always rely on. Now, I have no one. I still believe that we belong together and that Adam just needs to discover that for himself and this is how he has to.