and so it is... just like you said it would be.
i rather enjoy the freedom being able to cart my own ass around brings me. it seems like i have so much more time now. not so sure why. i saw a cute guy the other day. with a girlfriend. he kept glancing over at our table. i felt sorrow for him, as his girlfriend frequently took him for granted. he went up to fill her water glass, he went and bought her a cookie. she never said anything. he just watched her eat and stroked her knee. what a sweet, sweet boy. the library is a haven for fuckers. i cannot stand rude people. they should all be beaten mercilessly while i watch. jerks. im completely thinking about UMTC. i like it there--a lot. but i need to go away. maybe ill go to the U for a year then transfer. i suppose it mostly just depends on where i get accepted. this shit is so stressful, and to be toppedoff with a little maraschino cherry i like to call ap u.s. gov't and politics: condensed into but a single, disgusting quarter. and girl, am i looking forward to winter break. i need it like wood needs polishing. my eyes are tired. i WILL have a decent day tomorrow. i need to make some gifts. i love making things for people. katy will love her gifts. i helped my mom bke a teeny bit today. my general presents will be so great. nothing expensive, a little $3 gift for each of the girls, and cookies and fudge and peppermint bark handcrafted by my mother and i. i need to get my room clean. but i'd much rather sleep. or sit about hte house leisurely. i hope i get those ipod speakers. i really need to rid myself of that stereo wannabe thing in my room. what a piece of steamy shit. which reminds me. it is fucking tropical outside lately. and by tropical i mean a frozen, wretched, windy tundra. american beauty is a good movie. airplane! is a silly movie. choir concerts on mondays are shitty. mostly when you have a test in trig on tuesday and you suck at trig. trig groups should have stayed the same. i miss the guys in my old one. we had a super time together. and i have a thing for one of them. teehee! i've been ready for bed for nearly an hour now. shall i? perhaps i shall. my music is so weird. i love lori. i am pumped for bright eyes. who am i going to bring? i told someone i'd bring them but i dont really want to. mrs. dunn needs to hurry the eff up with my letter. it bothers me when people tell me disgustingly obvious things. such as "stopppp!!" when im 5000+ miles from the stop light. but thats what i have to deal with when im driving their car, i suppose. im a little bitch sometimes. rachel has had her license for a long time, and doesnt get to drive because she has no car. so i need to shut up. i have a weird feeling the t-bird will decide to die by default. then i'll be screwed more royally than ever. i wish i had more money. college will be a bitch to finance. or maybe someone who knew a lot about that stuff to help me get the right credit cards and loans and things. maybe deb can help, since andrew is in college already. but then again, they need none of the things i do, so probably not. i hope my kids dont have to worry about money issues. i dont mind it myself, but it would be cool. my mom is great. i like spending time with her alone. i love her. we want to kill each other less when we're together more. i love andrea flynn. my burn hurts like crazy. and so, i must go.
farewell.
farewell.