Original Fic:
Accidentally Like a Martyr, by
pdxscaperRemix: Time (Wasted Remix) [Aeryn, 100 words, rated G], by
kernezelda "Because John loves you,” Zhaan said. You refuse it. A soldier defends those weaker than herself, but he will gut himself to be what he thinks you want.
Zhaan gave her life for you. John’s love is frighteningly intense.
You must be strong enough to protect him... so you push him away. For the good of the crew; for your own sake. There are many dangers outside Moya. You won't lose John through failure of vigilance.
If Fate exists, then there will come a time when you can be together.
You have strength enough to deny you both.
For now.