But it's a couple more volts of shock treatment for you...
This is exactly why I am where I am in my life. Because I let people like this get to me. I let myself hurt so much. It's pointless, but you know what go ahead and blame me please. Give me another reason to fucking hate myself. It's only took so much convincing to actually smile. It's taken so much to get me to talk and I'm finally there and I let you tear it all apart. You don't know, so don't assume. You don't have conversations with me, so you don't what's going on in my life. If you're going to act like this towards me then you're right... I don't want you in my life.
I had a great day and then I wake up to this, I shouldn't have even responded.
It's taken SO much for me to stand up to myself, to actually stop friendships and yours truthfully was one I wanted to keep around. I am trying so hard to fix myself and it seems so pointless because whatever the fuck I do... I'm still a fuckup. Thank you. Because of shit that I wrote months ago when I had so much shit going on. Continue to point out my faults, it only gives me more reason to stop everything.
Honestly I can't fucking believe you because I took your faults for what they were and it never made you a horrible person in my eyes. I'd stick up for you whenever anyone said shit. I wish you could do the same for me. You know me better than probably anyone in my life knows me. You know full well that I am going to love you my whole life no matter what we go through. Whatever I say or you say. We got past a horrible time and I don't even know how the fuck that happened. I'm not fucking perfect so don't. Don't jump down my throat again because I don't need that.
I've changed so much in my life, I've fixed so much of myself and that's what I'm trying to do right now. Please let me continue to do this and if I make faults along the way I apologize. And you know I miss you.
I had a great day and then I wake up to this, I shouldn't have even responded.
It's taken SO much for me to stand up to myself, to actually stop friendships and yours truthfully was one I wanted to keep around. I am trying so hard to fix myself and it seems so pointless because whatever the fuck I do... I'm still a fuckup. Thank you. Because of shit that I wrote months ago when I had so much shit going on. Continue to point out my faults, it only gives me more reason to stop everything.
Honestly I can't fucking believe you because I took your faults for what they were and it never made you a horrible person in my eyes. I'd stick up for you whenever anyone said shit. I wish you could do the same for me. You know me better than probably anyone in my life knows me. You know full well that I am going to love you my whole life no matter what we go through. Whatever I say or you say. We got past a horrible time and I don't even know how the fuck that happened. I'm not fucking perfect so don't. Don't jump down my throat again because I don't need that.
I've changed so much in my life, I've fixed so much of myself and that's what I'm trying to do right now. Please let me continue to do this and if I make faults along the way I apologize. And you know I miss you.