A Thousand Years
Click to viewJO asked me to listen to this song. I think this song summarises his love for me. I fell in love with this song when I heard it, and I can't stop listening to this. This song reminds me of the twelve long years that we've been through and how I will never stop being afraid.
But.
Whenever I think about his love for me... all the rest pales in comparison. The other 'I love you's that I've heard so far have been counterfeits, imitations, shadows of the real thing. How do I know? Because I've experienced and have the real thing.
I've mentioned this to JO before, but I will say here again.
I am so very grateful to the love he has given me, because it has established in me the self-esteem, self-worth, confidence and knowledge that one can only build based on real love. He loves me for who I am, the whole package, unreservedly and me undeserving of it. And I think this is so very important in a woman, or should I say a person, so that she or he will never settle for less.
Love is not a commodity; it can't be traded or purchased. We should never ask for it, but hope to receive it while we dole it out carefully and cautiously. But I think a lot of people, especially women, don't understand this. Many young girls hoping to receive love from the wrong people, or in the wrong manner, sacrifice a lot and in the process, unknowingly lose themselves in unthinkable tangible and intangible ways.
I remember this conversation that I'd once held with a guy. He thought that women wanted to look pretty because they wanted to. I told him that is partially true but if you think a little deeper, why does she want that? Why is the pursuit of beauty neverending for most women? It is because most women (including me), to certain extent, base their self-esteem and self-worth on their appearances. In essence, they want to receive attention (good type), and eventually, love from everyone else. Almost all females in developing and developed countries have been indoctrinated by the media and society and culture that looking good is important, if not, critical.
But once you find someone who loves you entirely, wholesomely, regardless of your physical attributes or character faults... vanity fades away like darkness driven away by light. That someone, who is not your family or relative, has no reason to love you but yet loves you so much, creates something very solid and deep inside you, your soul and your heart. And that something is a strong buffer and shield that will help a person, especially a young person against many external, negative forces that will eventually come as s/he age.
The ultimate love must come from God.
What do I want to say?
I am grateful to God, and to JO for loving me.
Heartbeats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more
Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more
One step closer
One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more