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Dexter.
God, that was an unpleasant surprise. Turns out that Doakes's little nugget of info for Dexter led to the revelation that Harry didn't die of heart disease. He committed suicide.
I kind of have issues with the subject of paternal suicide. My own father committed suicide when I was an infant. At twenty-four, I am older than he was. And I have long since come to terms with it and forgiven him. It's not exactly something that weighs on my mind on a daily basis, you know? It's part of who I am, but lots of other things are, too. In other words, if you are reading this and didn't know, no sympathy, please. Shit happens. I'm fine.
That said, it is still easy to shock me with it if the subject comes up unexpectedly. And boy, did this episode ever nail me upside the head. Watching the child find out that the father killed himself? Seeing him try to cope with it? Listening to Dexter say to Rita, "I don't know why, why he would do that to himself." Pause. "Or me."
Tears everywhere. "Or me." Oh, Jesus. I had to hit pause for a couple minutes. I don't want to get into emo tl;dr here, but that's the key right there. "Or me."
Okay, not gonna start crying again. MOVING ON.
How about I praise Erik King some more? I am loving what he is doing with Doakes now that the writers are letting Doakes be a bit more than a one-note antagonistic foil for Dexter. (Speaking of the writers and Doakes, by the way - I let slide the fact that Dexter got the jump on him so easily last week, but Doakes drinking water Dexter gave him without even stopping to check for a broken seal or injection site? Bitch, please. I suppose I'd buy him underestimating Dexter, but stupid he ain't. He should have checked that water whether he thought Dexter would have poisoned it or not. He's too cautious not to.) But, flawed writing for the character aside, Erik King has kicked it. I loved his desperate panic and fear when Dexter went about killing someone right in front of him (save for the near-opaque plastic curtain), and his near-catatonia when Dexter pulled the curtain down. King is really selling Doakes's reactions as reality sets in, showing him cracking without putting it over the top.
And dammit, I'm starting to like Doakes.
Every week, there is a new thing I want to happen on this show. This week, I want Dexter and Doakes to somehow reach an accord where Doakes disappears, saving his own life and Dexter's. That's about as realistic as what I wanted last week (for Doakes and Dexter to team up, get on each others' nerves during their murders, and occasionally have hot sex), but I want it, dammit. No dead Doakeses or incarcerated Dexters, plz. ;_;
(PS, I would also accept the teaming up thing. They can even leave out the hot sex. I'm feeling generous.)
In other news, shut up, Lila. You suck and I hate you and I don't see what framing Angel for rape is going to accomplish, unless you think you can blackmail Dexter into taking you back in exchange for dropping the charges. Poor Angel, man. Hope you enjoyed your day with your kid because the writers apparently hate you way too much to let you be happy ever again.
Also, aw geez. Deb and Lundy both having abandonment issues. Deb's was to be expected, and I wish certain TWoP recappers would cut her a little slack for her behavior, considering that her father ignored her all her life and then died, and also the whole dating a serial killer thing, so yeah she has issues that she refuses to deal with and thus acts like a bitch, often in sheer self-defense. But Lundy being all, "I assumed you'd get bored with dating my old ass and ditch me anyway" made me all sniffly. He's perfect for Deb because he has the wisdom and patience to deal with her crap, and that in turn can help her deal with it, and once she's got her shit worked out she'll be good for him, too. Hell, she already is just by reminding him that his life didn't end with his wife's death. I love them together so much. I hope they can figure something out.
Two episodes left. What am I gonna do two weeks from now?
God, that was an unpleasant surprise. Turns out that Doakes's little nugget of info for Dexter led to the revelation that Harry didn't die of heart disease. He committed suicide.
I kind of have issues with the subject of paternal suicide. My own father committed suicide when I was an infant. At twenty-four, I am older than he was. And I have long since come to terms with it and forgiven him. It's not exactly something that weighs on my mind on a daily basis, you know? It's part of who I am, but lots of other things are, too. In other words, if you are reading this and didn't know, no sympathy, please. Shit happens. I'm fine.
That said, it is still easy to shock me with it if the subject comes up unexpectedly. And boy, did this episode ever nail me upside the head. Watching the child find out that the father killed himself? Seeing him try to cope with it? Listening to Dexter say to Rita, "I don't know why, why he would do that to himself." Pause. "Or me."
Tears everywhere. "Or me." Oh, Jesus. I had to hit pause for a couple minutes. I don't want to get into emo tl;dr here, but that's the key right there. "Or me."
Okay, not gonna start crying again. MOVING ON.
How about I praise Erik King some more? I am loving what he is doing with Doakes now that the writers are letting Doakes be a bit more than a one-note antagonistic foil for Dexter. (Speaking of the writers and Doakes, by the way - I let slide the fact that Dexter got the jump on him so easily last week, but Doakes drinking water Dexter gave him without even stopping to check for a broken seal or injection site? Bitch, please. I suppose I'd buy him underestimating Dexter, but stupid he ain't. He should have checked that water whether he thought Dexter would have poisoned it or not. He's too cautious not to.) But, flawed writing for the character aside, Erik King has kicked it. I loved his desperate panic and fear when Dexter went about killing someone right in front of him (save for the near-opaque plastic curtain), and his near-catatonia when Dexter pulled the curtain down. King is really selling Doakes's reactions as reality sets in, showing him cracking without putting it over the top.
And dammit, I'm starting to like Doakes.
Every week, there is a new thing I want to happen on this show. This week, I want Dexter and Doakes to somehow reach an accord where Doakes disappears, saving his own life and Dexter's. That's about as realistic as what I wanted last week (for Doakes and Dexter to team up, get on each others' nerves during their murders, and occasionally have hot sex), but I want it, dammit. No dead Doakeses or incarcerated Dexters, plz. ;_;
(PS, I would also accept the teaming up thing. They can even leave out the hot sex. I'm feeling generous.)
In other news, shut up, Lila. You suck and I hate you and I don't see what framing Angel for rape is going to accomplish, unless you think you can blackmail Dexter into taking you back in exchange for dropping the charges. Poor Angel, man. Hope you enjoyed your day with your kid because the writers apparently hate you way too much to let you be happy ever again.
Also, aw geez. Deb and Lundy both having abandonment issues. Deb's was to be expected, and I wish certain TWoP recappers would cut her a little slack for her behavior, considering that her father ignored her all her life and then died, and also the whole dating a serial killer thing, so yeah she has issues that she refuses to deal with and thus acts like a bitch, often in sheer self-defense. But Lundy being all, "I assumed you'd get bored with dating my old ass and ditch me anyway" made me all sniffly. He's perfect for Deb because he has the wisdom and patience to deal with her crap, and that in turn can help her deal with it, and once she's got her shit worked out she'll be good for him, too. Hell, she already is just by reminding him that his life didn't end with his wife's death. I love them together so much. I hope they can figure something out.
Two episodes left. What am I gonna do two weeks from now?