w-inds. - Find Myself
Again, for shinigamitabris. I'm grateful for the excuse to revisit these songs, because I tried and failed to translate both of them a year or so ago, and they're endlessly fascinating now, especially given the members' respective affinities for them. This song just screams Ryohei to me. I can see why he's always loved it. ♥
Find Myself
Always I'm finding myself
For example, times when
I suddenly come across a memory that should be gone
and all at once my heart starts to pound uncontrollably
and I become lost within it.
This time, I'm standing at the turning point I can never escape from;
what is it that I want to choose?
The road towards stability? Or else, the willpower connected to change?
"Always having tomorrow taken care of for you
is so wearisome."
If I understand that, I can find an answer but
I can't help myself from thinking it over again.
Countless encounters, the expanding future
A world of our own, unbreakable pride
The multiple forks in the road
test the steps that I've taken so far, so...
So, can I believe in myself?
I want to try and make sure of my own destination
In these days where I'm just groping along
I'll make use of every small experience
Yes, I am thinking of this
I want to search out the dreams that will one day satisfy me
I'm not on the way, and there is no end
I'm always just beginning to find myself
Even if I try to follow the shortest path to the goal
my desire to hurry throws me off course.
The speed of this era and my own personal pace
aren't so easily reconciled.
The insecurity that I carry
will soon disappear just to be born again.
It'll repeat, but, after all, this is true
I can feel somebody supporting me, so
So, can I believe in myself
I want to believe that I'm not always alone
The chains that bound me and my new relations
Somewhere in-between them, I begin to see tomorrow.
Yes, I am thinking of this
The love I haven't found yet that will always satisfy me
But despite that, in order to get closer
to my pictured ideal, I try to find myself
What is it for? Why?
Even if you think that way, look, the blue sky never changes
You have to stray before you can leap out beyond the light.
That's the approaching run that's never pointless.
The wall in front of your eyes blocks your way
and you trip on your own two feet
It's never easy, the road to the light.
But despite that, I want to search for
the unshakable mind.
The desert expands before me, no landmarks in sight
But certainly there must be
an oasis that will quench my dried up feelings and cure me.
And there, I will make a flower bloom.
Everybody gets hurt, but walks on despite it
feeling for the first time the depth of peace.
Even if you look back, it shines on, yourself.
And surely I can cut through, myself.
So, can I believe in myself?
I want to try and make sure of my own destination
In these days where I'm just groping along
I'll make use of every small experience
Yes, I am thinking of this
I want to search out the dreams that will one day satisfy me
I'm not on the way, and there is no end
I'm always just beginning to find myself
So, can I believe in myself?
I want to try and make sure.
Yes, I am thinking of this
I want to search for it.
Notes: I might want to clean up a few lines someday, but this was a ton of fun, if not endlessly frustrating, and I'm pretty certain of most of it. ^_^ If there's any questions on meaning, though, please let me know; there were a few points where finding pure English equivalents to the Japanese became very difficult, but I tried my hardest. ♥
Find Myself
Always I'm finding myself
For example, times when
I suddenly come across a memory that should be gone
and all at once my heart starts to pound uncontrollably
and I become lost within it.
This time, I'm standing at the turning point I can never escape from;
what is it that I want to choose?
The road towards stability? Or else, the willpower connected to change?
"Always having tomorrow taken care of for you
is so wearisome."
If I understand that, I can find an answer but
I can't help myself from thinking it over again.
Countless encounters, the expanding future
A world of our own, unbreakable pride
The multiple forks in the road
test the steps that I've taken so far, so...
So, can I believe in myself?
I want to try and make sure of my own destination
In these days where I'm just groping along
I'll make use of every small experience
Yes, I am thinking of this
I want to search out the dreams that will one day satisfy me
I'm not on the way, and there is no end
I'm always just beginning to find myself
Even if I try to follow the shortest path to the goal
my desire to hurry throws me off course.
The speed of this era and my own personal pace
aren't so easily reconciled.
The insecurity that I carry
will soon disappear just to be born again.
It'll repeat, but, after all, this is true
I can feel somebody supporting me, so
So, can I believe in myself
I want to believe that I'm not always alone
The chains that bound me and my new relations
Somewhere in-between them, I begin to see tomorrow.
Yes, I am thinking of this
The love I haven't found yet that will always satisfy me
But despite that, in order to get closer
to my pictured ideal, I try to find myself
What is it for? Why?
Even if you think that way, look, the blue sky never changes
You have to stray before you can leap out beyond the light.
That's the approaching run that's never pointless.
The wall in front of your eyes blocks your way
and you trip on your own two feet
It's never easy, the road to the light.
But despite that, I want to search for
the unshakable mind.
The desert expands before me, no landmarks in sight
But certainly there must be
an oasis that will quench my dried up feelings and cure me.
And there, I will make a flower bloom.
Everybody gets hurt, but walks on despite it
feeling for the first time the depth of peace.
Even if you look back, it shines on, yourself.
And surely I can cut through, myself.
So, can I believe in myself?
I want to try and make sure of my own destination
In these days where I'm just groping along
I'll make use of every small experience
Yes, I am thinking of this
I want to search out the dreams that will one day satisfy me
I'm not on the way, and there is no end
I'm always just beginning to find myself
So, can I believe in myself?
I want to try and make sure.
Yes, I am thinking of this
I want to search for it.
Notes: I might want to clean up a few lines someday, but this was a ton of fun, if not endlessly frustrating, and I'm pretty certain of most of it. ^_^ If there's any questions on meaning, though, please let me know; there were a few points where finding pure English equivalents to the Japanese became very difficult, but I tried my hardest. ♥