ALL I WANT IS TO NOT NEED YOU NOW
Im home. unfortenually. i wish i could move away and never return and get away from all this bullshit. i had so much fun witha lyssa....getting drunk on hte beach haha. evreything was perfect but you kwno nohting can be perfect fro me wthout one nihgt of misery. For some reason i broke down one nihgt for no reason. i tried to drink my way out of it but it only made it worse. never drink when your already feeling down.i remember laying on hte belcony curled up into a little ball staring at the moons light on the ocean and rocking back and forth crying. I was thinking... i decied im not takign my medicine anymore. i can enever be truely happy if i have somehting holding me back. ever since 5th grade ive been on some kind of medication and well frankly in sick of all this bullcrap.well anyway other then that the rest was awsome. haah my favortie was stumbling on the beach at 4 in the morning ahhayewah welk m mom is bithcing at me to take a shower soo