Stuff and things
I've got a number of things I want to do in the near future. One of them is to get a bike and actually ride it to work on getting back into shape. I noticed that ever since I stopped biking all those years ago when I got a car of my own I have been annoyed with the belly flab. It wasn't so bad before I moved to texas, but since I moved I have gained about 20lbs.
though on a side note, since I moved last month I have somehow lost 10lbs despite no change in my diet or anything. It's been suggested this weight loss was due to my stress levels going down, which I suppose is possible.
The second thing I want to do is work more on my contact juggling. Yea, I am fairly decent at the few tricks I can do now, but I need to expand. One reason I haven't worked on it is because the last 2 apartments I lived in have been on hte second story. Dropping an acrylic makes a loud thump even with carpet. When I normally get time to practice is at night, after when most normal people go to bed. I'd like to think I am a considerate neighbor even with my mostly nocturnal habits and simply don't practice when people are sleeping as result. Along with that I also have the desire to learn contact staff, but the staff alone to start out will cost me about 100 between the staff and shipping.
Third thing I want to do is make a trip back to San Diego. Preferably in time for Comic Con. I haven't been since I left SD, and damnit, I wanna go again! Go to the xsanguin party and all that. Hit up Therapy and Sabbat, and whatever else goth club is still lurking in the area. I want to see all those old people I used to hang out with at the club like Meli and Isabelle and Mikey.
Fourth thing I want to do is get enough money saved up so I can look into buying a house. I have wanted to buy a house for the last 8 years. It's a goal of mine I seem to slip a little further away from every day. I'm getting better at the putting money in savings and not touching it, but I'm not managing to put much away so progress is slow. I am making small dents into the debt on the credit cards, but again it's small dents. I have 2 and combined it's near 7k, I have one that I expect to pay off in the next 3 months, but it will be at least another 2-3 years before I am completly debt free between credit card debt and other debt (I have 2 loans, one a personal loan and one a student loan to pay off as well and the money owed the electric company from the bad roommate I haven't even started to work on). And yes, I know tackle the smaller debts first then move onto the bigger ones. I am doing that.
And the fifth thing I want to do? I want to go to Germany on vacation. I won't do that till I am more fluent in German though, but that's another thing I don't get to practice cause I don't know anyone anymore who speaks German, and I am not going to school so I can't take classes.
Which brings me to the last thing. I want to go back to school. But this falls back on the money issue. I can't afford to go to school. Granted now that I have my taxes for last year done and am now filed as divorced I can start looking into grants. Last year when I started to look into grants because I was still married despite filing seperatly everything I found wanted the now exhusbands tax information as well as my own, which made me unable to be eligable. He simply made to much for me to be able to get a grant, despite my not having access to any of that income.
It's a start at least. I know what I want to do, but the road to being able to do it is going to be hard and not fun at all. But thinking about it the last few years have been just that, and that was just to survive. I really am tired of living pay check to pay check and having to ask for help to get by. I want to be able to stand on my own 2 feet and LIVE not just survive. It's a little better now, I'm in a place I can realistically afford, but it's still a little bit of struggling involved.
though on a side note, since I moved last month I have somehow lost 10lbs despite no change in my diet or anything. It's been suggested this weight loss was due to my stress levels going down, which I suppose is possible.
The second thing I want to do is work more on my contact juggling. Yea, I am fairly decent at the few tricks I can do now, but I need to expand. One reason I haven't worked on it is because the last 2 apartments I lived in have been on hte second story. Dropping an acrylic makes a loud thump even with carpet. When I normally get time to practice is at night, after when most normal people go to bed. I'd like to think I am a considerate neighbor even with my mostly nocturnal habits and simply don't practice when people are sleeping as result. Along with that I also have the desire to learn contact staff, but the staff alone to start out will cost me about 100 between the staff and shipping.
Third thing I want to do is make a trip back to San Diego. Preferably in time for Comic Con. I haven't been since I left SD, and damnit, I wanna go again! Go to the xsanguin party and all that. Hit up Therapy and Sabbat, and whatever else goth club is still lurking in the area. I want to see all those old people I used to hang out with at the club like Meli and Isabelle and Mikey.
Fourth thing I want to do is get enough money saved up so I can look into buying a house. I have wanted to buy a house for the last 8 years. It's a goal of mine I seem to slip a little further away from every day. I'm getting better at the putting money in savings and not touching it, but I'm not managing to put much away so progress is slow. I am making small dents into the debt on the credit cards, but again it's small dents. I have 2 and combined it's near 7k, I have one that I expect to pay off in the next 3 months, but it will be at least another 2-3 years before I am completly debt free between credit card debt and other debt (I have 2 loans, one a personal loan and one a student loan to pay off as well and the money owed the electric company from the bad roommate I haven't even started to work on). And yes, I know tackle the smaller debts first then move onto the bigger ones. I am doing that.
And the fifth thing I want to do? I want to go to Germany on vacation. I won't do that till I am more fluent in German though, but that's another thing I don't get to practice cause I don't know anyone anymore who speaks German, and I am not going to school so I can't take classes.
Which brings me to the last thing. I want to go back to school. But this falls back on the money issue. I can't afford to go to school. Granted now that I have my taxes for last year done and am now filed as divorced I can start looking into grants. Last year when I started to look into grants because I was still married despite filing seperatly everything I found wanted the now exhusbands tax information as well as my own, which made me unable to be eligable. He simply made to much for me to be able to get a grant, despite my not having access to any of that income.
It's a start at least. I know what I want to do, but the road to being able to do it is going to be hard and not fun at all. But thinking about it the last few years have been just that, and that was just to survive. I really am tired of living pay check to pay check and having to ask for help to get by. I want to be able to stand on my own 2 feet and LIVE not just survive. It's a little better now, I'm in a place I can realistically afford, but it's still a little bit of struggling involved.