♥ oh a trip down memory lane. . . .
okay. so im really bored right now and im feeling like just writing about absolutely nothing.
so i duno . ive been actually thinking alot lately, [ okay so more like last night into today] about how much has changed. with eleventh grade coming and going, it made me realize, we have one year left. it feels like just yesterday we were walking into the freshman campus scared out of our minds because we didnt know what high school would bring. now that my little brother is going to be a freshman next year, it made me think. he is going to be going through the same stuff. and i really wish i could go back to that time, because so much has changed since then.
first year of major changes. 9th grade dont even know where to start. a year full of changes, that really did happen so fast. you walk into that building not knowing what to expect, and at the end of the year, you have a whole set of new friends, new ideas on how things should be done, new views on different things, and youre actually surprised you survived waking up that early all year. the first year of high school, remember it? i do. just like it was yesterday. all my classes, stupid things i got in trouble for. but what i dont remember is where the year went, its gone now and it cant come back, even though i wish it could.
up next. 10th grade. this i have to say was probably the hardest year for me. starting out again at the bottom of the school. youre the youngest, and youre not in a building by yourself anymore. you got thrown into the "big building" with the older kids who, for some odd reason you were sortof afraid of. unfortunately as the year wore on, friendships were tested, and some were saved, while others were lost, and that was a hard concept for me to grasp. two of my best friends, i completely lost. one i had been friends with for a year, maybe two, and the other..since i moved here. its not that i dont get along with them, thats not the case at all. but we dont talk, or hang out, or even see eachother at all anymore. that really sold me on the idea that people can change, even in ways you dont think they can, even if you dont want them to. the word "best friend" doesnt really have as much of a value as "friend:" does to me now. my friends are my life, and i would do anything for them, and 10th grade really solidified the concept of change to me. and even though it was a tough year, i wouldnt change it for anything.
finally, 11th grade. well.. this year just flew by, and again, the concept of change was brought up in my mind. a lot of new things happened this year, for me at least. and a lot of firsts. some im not going into, but a major first is driving. i never thought the day would come where i would actually get my license. but i did, and now i cant take driving somewhere with my parents. but hey i'll get over that. once again, i feel that ive almost lost a very good friend of mine. i know that it is all my fault. i never really made an effort this year to talk to her much. or see her, or even call her to hang out. i dont know whats gotten into me. but as i look back at it now, i realize how much i really do miss her. she hung out with me and my friends a couple of nights ago, and i really enjoyed her being there. this girl was my best friend, even though i know i sayd that word doesnt mean the same thing to me anymore, but with her, she will always be regarded as my best friend. i miss her so much and i really hope that i can try to fix basically my mistakes, and i am going to. im so sorry this happened and i really wish that it didnt have to come down to almost losing her,but unfortunately it did and i cant change that, so im going to fix that now.
another concept im learning is trust. without it, you get no where, but you cant be too trusting. people you thought you could trust may actually not be that trustworthy. not that im saying that people i know have caused me to lose my trust in them, im just making a point. i think it was once said that trust is the hardest thing to fix, but the easiest thing to break. and now that i look back on the friendships ive lost, it sort of comes down to trust a little bit, but hey thats just my opinion on that matter, it wasnt meant for any one particular person, so please dont take it personally if you think its about you, because im just making a general statement, so please dont misunderstand. [and no thats not meant to seem bitchy and im sorry if you interpreted it that way]
i honestly think that it really feels like just yesterday ninth grade began. and now we're seniors. it will be over before we know it, so make it good. with that, i would like to say that we better make this summer a good one, because if the school year flew by this fast, imagine how fast summer will go.
well i think thats all i have to say on that matter.
if you actually read this ramble, im sorry if i bored you
well im out kids .
kbie ♥
so i duno . ive been actually thinking alot lately, [ okay so more like last night into today] about how much has changed. with eleventh grade coming and going, it made me realize, we have one year left. it feels like just yesterday we were walking into the freshman campus scared out of our minds because we didnt know what high school would bring. now that my little brother is going to be a freshman next year, it made me think. he is going to be going through the same stuff. and i really wish i could go back to that time, because so much has changed since then.
first year of major changes. 9th grade dont even know where to start. a year full of changes, that really did happen so fast. you walk into that building not knowing what to expect, and at the end of the year, you have a whole set of new friends, new ideas on how things should be done, new views on different things, and youre actually surprised you survived waking up that early all year. the first year of high school, remember it? i do. just like it was yesterday. all my classes, stupid things i got in trouble for. but what i dont remember is where the year went, its gone now and it cant come back, even though i wish it could.
up next. 10th grade. this i have to say was probably the hardest year for me. starting out again at the bottom of the school. youre the youngest, and youre not in a building by yourself anymore. you got thrown into the "big building" with the older kids who, for some odd reason you were sortof afraid of. unfortunately as the year wore on, friendships were tested, and some were saved, while others were lost, and that was a hard concept for me to grasp. two of my best friends, i completely lost. one i had been friends with for a year, maybe two, and the other..since i moved here. its not that i dont get along with them, thats not the case at all. but we dont talk, or hang out, or even see eachother at all anymore. that really sold me on the idea that people can change, even in ways you dont think they can, even if you dont want them to. the word "best friend" doesnt really have as much of a value as "friend:" does to me now. my friends are my life, and i would do anything for them, and 10th grade really solidified the concept of change to me. and even though it was a tough year, i wouldnt change it for anything.
finally, 11th grade. well.. this year just flew by, and again, the concept of change was brought up in my mind. a lot of new things happened this year, for me at least. and a lot of firsts. some im not going into, but a major first is driving. i never thought the day would come where i would actually get my license. but i did, and now i cant take driving somewhere with my parents. but hey i'll get over that. once again, i feel that ive almost lost a very good friend of mine. i know that it is all my fault. i never really made an effort this year to talk to her much. or see her, or even call her to hang out. i dont know whats gotten into me. but as i look back at it now, i realize how much i really do miss her. she hung out with me and my friends a couple of nights ago, and i really enjoyed her being there. this girl was my best friend, even though i know i sayd that word doesnt mean the same thing to me anymore, but with her, she will always be regarded as my best friend. i miss her so much and i really hope that i can try to fix basically my mistakes, and i am going to. im so sorry this happened and i really wish that it didnt have to come down to almost losing her,but unfortunately it did and i cant change that, so im going to fix that now.
another concept im learning is trust. without it, you get no where, but you cant be too trusting. people you thought you could trust may actually not be that trustworthy. not that im saying that people i know have caused me to lose my trust in them, im just making a point. i think it was once said that trust is the hardest thing to fix, but the easiest thing to break. and now that i look back on the friendships ive lost, it sort of comes down to trust a little bit, but hey thats just my opinion on that matter, it wasnt meant for any one particular person, so please dont take it personally if you think its about you, because im just making a general statement, so please dont misunderstand. [and no thats not meant to seem bitchy and im sorry if you interpreted it that way]
i honestly think that it really feels like just yesterday ninth grade began. and now we're seniors. it will be over before we know it, so make it good. with that, i would like to say that we better make this summer a good one, because if the school year flew by this fast, imagine how fast summer will go.
well i think thats all i have to say on that matter.
if you actually read this ramble, im sorry if i bored you
well im out kids .
kbie ♥