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if you want to know how i really feel?
stevenXlionheart: its funny how much ive grown up, yet i still harbor the same hate ive had for family over the last 7 years
stevenXlionheart: and it has only gotten worse.
stevenXlionheart: funny thing, i swore not to be like my dad yet im a mirror image of him personality wise
stevenXlionheart: when he was 22 he left and has never spoken to his family since. (38 years)
stevenXlionheart: i get in worse moods than he does almost as often as he does.
stevenXlionheart: i hate the world almost as much as he does.
stevenXlionheart: he wants him and my mom to abandon me and my brother like he did his family. i want to abandon them all.
and although our life sure wasnt pefect before that moment 7 years ago, it all is thanks to drugs and alcohol. no fucking joke.
yeah, wheres all the funny cute comments now?
Commitment to lasting and total destruction. Leave nothing left. Breathing
annihilation. Living the darkest obsession. Flesh scored like a field.
Byproduct of dissolved inhibition. By now you'd think I'd have learned
my lesson. I'm this close to giving up. In one breath turn wish to
wonder. Don't follo me. I'm going under. No progression. Gaping lips
anticipation. Distorted one-sided reflection. Crippling depression.
Pernicious suppression. Abandoning conviction. Internal eutrophication.
Pure elation in regression. I'm so close to giving up. I cease to
wonder. Don't follow me. I'm going under.
stevenXlionheart: its funny how much ive grown up, yet i still harbor the same hate ive had for family over the last 7 years
stevenXlionheart: and it has only gotten worse.
stevenXlionheart: funny thing, i swore not to be like my dad yet im a mirror image of him personality wise
stevenXlionheart: when he was 22 he left and has never spoken to his family since. (38 years)
stevenXlionheart: i get in worse moods than he does almost as often as he does.
stevenXlionheart: i hate the world almost as much as he does.
stevenXlionheart: he wants him and my mom to abandon me and my brother like he did his family. i want to abandon them all.
and although our life sure wasnt pefect before that moment 7 years ago, it all is thanks to drugs and alcohol. no fucking joke.
yeah, wheres all the funny cute comments now?
Commitment to lasting and total destruction. Leave nothing left. Breathing
annihilation. Living the darkest obsession. Flesh scored like a field.
Byproduct of dissolved inhibition. By now you'd think I'd have learned
my lesson. I'm this close to giving up. In one breath turn wish to
wonder. Don't follo me. I'm going under. No progression. Gaping lips
anticipation. Distorted one-sided reflection. Crippling depression.
Pernicious suppression. Abandoning conviction. Internal eutrophication.
Pure elation in regression. I'm so close to giving up. I cease to
wonder. Don't follow me. I'm going under.