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Wow, it's been a long time since I've posted. A numbered post would be easiest.
1. I was laid off recently but at the last minute, I got a reprieve. That is the nature of non-profits. I have been moved to another office to fill a long term position (as long as there is funding.) That office is closer by a few mintues and is in a very old, very beautiful antebellum home-turned-office complex. I like it better there. Unfortunately, I still do not feel safe though and continue to look for something else. It is all about funding and I have a feeling the funding is running out because it seems like the higher ups are nervous and there have been rumors.
2. Tony and I had a date last night. He looked me in the eyes over dinner and told me that before we began dating, he thought I was out of his league and that he had no chance with me. That bothered me so I asked if I had acted in some way that gave him that impression. He said no. He just thought I was "too beautiful" for him. I made a sarcastic snort and he said that he was serious. So then I insulted myself some more and said I'm sure he doesn't think I'm as beautiful now that I'm overweight and have this pregnancy-esque gut. He told me I'm still as beautiful to him. I believe him that he still feels that way. I just don't know how it is possible, but later that night, we made love and it was very special. I'm lucky, I know.
3. Our beach has oil and animals are dying. Livelihoods are dying. It is so sad and if a hurricane hits us, the future of this place will be bleak at best.
4. Tony has been changing his mind about one day adopting a child with Down syndrome from overseas. We can't do it right now anyway but it worries me that he will never want to. If not, I need to be content with that and find other ways to help those children. I have ideas, just not the ways and means to make the ideas a reality. It is so strange how once you find an all-consuming issue, you can't understand why others aren't also consumed by it.
5. Trent is amazing. He is learning sign language quickly. Today he signed "please" so Tony asked him "please what?" and Trent signed "please" then "eat." He is walking better,about ten steps at a time. He is also climbing on furniture. God help us. He is still pretty much allergic to anything other than Elecare formula. There are foods he can have from health food stores, along with fruits and vegetables. Unfortunately, he is not getting enough practice eating different textures of food, and he has issues with textures. His occupational and speech therapist working on these issues, but the allergy combinded with the lack of choices for food are making it very difficult to get him off of the bottle. I never thought I would have a two year old still eating from a bottle and eating formula. He also refuses sippy cups and is having trouble learning to drink from a straw. He has mild sensory intergration disorder, which is common in children with Down syndrome. It isn't as bad as it sounds, it just adds another layer to therapy. He has friends his age in the Gulf Coast Down Syndrome Society and OMG, they are so cute together. They play well and then kiss and hug when it is time to leave. So loving.
6. Devon and Layla give Trent lots of attention and help. Devon will be starting the 4th grade in August. Layla will start Kindergarten.
7. Tony doesn't really enjoy being a stay at home dad. He is starting a new semester (after a semester off) and I hope that helps. I remember the feeling well. He is also waiting on a job. It is a job that requires a security clearance so the process is long. If he does go to work, I will continue to work and Trent will go to daycare.
8. Tony has quit smoking. It has been about two months now.
9.
10. I didn't want to end on 8.
1. I was laid off recently but at the last minute, I got a reprieve. That is the nature of non-profits. I have been moved to another office to fill a long term position (as long as there is funding.) That office is closer by a few mintues and is in a very old, very beautiful antebellum home-turned-office complex. I like it better there. Unfortunately, I still do not feel safe though and continue to look for something else. It is all about funding and I have a feeling the funding is running out because it seems like the higher ups are nervous and there have been rumors.
2. Tony and I had a date last night. He looked me in the eyes over dinner and told me that before we began dating, he thought I was out of his league and that he had no chance with me. That bothered me so I asked if I had acted in some way that gave him that impression. He said no. He just thought I was "too beautiful" for him. I made a sarcastic snort and he said that he was serious. So then I insulted myself some more and said I'm sure he doesn't think I'm as beautiful now that I'm overweight and have this pregnancy-esque gut. He told me I'm still as beautiful to him. I believe him that he still feels that way. I just don't know how it is possible, but later that night, we made love and it was very special. I'm lucky, I know.
3. Our beach has oil and animals are dying. Livelihoods are dying. It is so sad and if a hurricane hits us, the future of this place will be bleak at best.
4. Tony has been changing his mind about one day adopting a child with Down syndrome from overseas. We can't do it right now anyway but it worries me that he will never want to. If not, I need to be content with that and find other ways to help those children. I have ideas, just not the ways and means to make the ideas a reality. It is so strange how once you find an all-consuming issue, you can't understand why others aren't also consumed by it.
5. Trent is amazing. He is learning sign language quickly. Today he signed "please" so Tony asked him "please what?" and Trent signed "please" then "eat." He is walking better,about ten steps at a time. He is also climbing on furniture. God help us. He is still pretty much allergic to anything other than Elecare formula. There are foods he can have from health food stores, along with fruits and vegetables. Unfortunately, he is not getting enough practice eating different textures of food, and he has issues with textures. His occupational and speech therapist working on these issues, but the allergy combinded with the lack of choices for food are making it very difficult to get him off of the bottle. I never thought I would have a two year old still eating from a bottle and eating formula. He also refuses sippy cups and is having trouble learning to drink from a straw. He has mild sensory intergration disorder, which is common in children with Down syndrome. It isn't as bad as it sounds, it just adds another layer to therapy. He has friends his age in the Gulf Coast Down Syndrome Society and OMG, they are so cute together. They play well and then kiss and hug when it is time to leave. So loving.
6. Devon and Layla give Trent lots of attention and help. Devon will be starting the 4th grade in August. Layla will start Kindergarten.
7. Tony doesn't really enjoy being a stay at home dad. He is starting a new semester (after a semester off) and I hope that helps. I remember the feeling well. He is also waiting on a job. It is a job that requires a security clearance so the process is long. If he does go to work, I will continue to work and Trent will go to daycare.
8. Tony has quit smoking. It has been about two months now.
9.
10. I didn't want to end on 8.