fuck
too much bull shit.. i feel icky.. lets be honest.... first of all before i treat anyone different i tell them what the fuck they did wrong.. so if you decide to treat me different you better be prepared for a conversation as to why... because if i care about you i wont leave it at that.. if you have a problem or concern about anything i did or do then fuckin say it.. dont wait for me to come to you and ask.. another thing dont you dare tell me you love me and not mean it.. dont give your bullshit and not want to be there to take it back... how dare you be able to dish it out and be too scared to stand there and fight back... if i truely love you then i'll still be there no matter what.. but most of you fucking people wont last 2 more weeks with me...i've had it... you people have caused more bullshit then god knows what... and i dont have to deal... i've always told you what i thought.. i've always been up front and honest.. if you want to know just fucking ask if i feel you have the right to know i'll tell you other wise i'll tell you its not your damn problem.. another i dont cry to most of you damn people with my problems i dont ever fuckin post them in these damn journals.. i deal with it myself and if i dont cry to you that makes one of the few people that i let help me with my problems... the point is.. if you have a problem with me dont wait for me to figure it out on my own fucking grow some balls and tell me because its bull shit and i refuse to deal with it anymore from this point on i dont care how many friend i have or lose i dont want this bull shit in my life and the plain simple fact is most of you wont really be with me forever anyways... most of you are just here of the high school years so basically i'll make it really easy for those people-i dont want you i dont need you i dont have time you if you arent going to be there for me through it all... so fuck it all...