Sep 10, 2004 19:47
I Wake alone.
In a womans bed i hardly know.
Pretend that i am finally home.
....Why do i start what i cant finish?
Well maybe i dont wanna finish anything, anymore.
And maybe i dont know what i want anymore, fuck.
All i want right now is to be out of washington, out of this house. My parents dont even talk to me ever unless im in trouble. They complain about everything i do. I seriously got in trouble last nightfor filling out an application with a pen that leaked through the paper, and when i told my dad i didnt know and that it wasnt a big deal he told me not to argue unless i wanted to be grounded for 2 weeks. At dinner i sit there at the awkwardly silent table, listening to everyone chew there food and i wanna scream. My dad is a hypocrit and treats me like im 13. He rarely ever lets me stay out at night because he says its juvenile. Waking up at 9 o'clock is sleeping in. coming home at 530 everyday after school gets me "your never here" "Your always out" All i want is someone to make me happy, and return the favor to.
Someone leave with me. Seriously.
I'd hate to go alone.
Fuck off, dad.