The Hot-tub Paradigm

[remedial_rat]

Hello!
Is there anybody out there?
I can't seem to get my self outta here.

I'm stuck in this pool of stagnation.
This life isn't going anywhere-
Right now,
My being is stewing
Past events, unchanging faces, wavering chances.

It's all the same!
The mind is pruning
with the kerosene of stale monotony.
Ready for any ol' match
Go ahead!
Just try it.
Insanity comes in all prismatic flaming ignition-Ambition?

Destination nowhere.
A finger to guide?
I've got none.
They might as well be knuckled hands
Tied behind my back.

Eyes rolled back and slacked jawed.
The drool from my lip has more direction than I.
Numb to the bone
and
Dry nerved.
Skin soaked
and
joint locked.

I want out.
but
The brisk air forces me back
Back into the warm comfort I've always known.
I want,
No.
Need new things.
Taste,
Smell
Feel
See
A new hot-tub.