What once was

[remburge]

A couple of months ago i did something really shitty and as a result it ended a friendship that i had with a really good cool funny person. Ever since then this person will pop into my head and i would sit at work or in my room and think about how the situation could have changed. We still might be friends but just not as close as before but we would still talk. I talked to jordan a couple of times about this and she says we should talk but its kind of akward to talk to someone knowing you left on such bad terms. And what made the situation so much better was that someone else started it and made it alot worse. I was looking at past journal entries that i have and i came across one and we were talking to eachother and we were so happy that we were hanging out like we did in school and i look at that and then look at how we are now and its crazy. We arent talking because of something really stupid that i will never ever do again because all it does is ruin friendships. As i sit her now typing in my journal i think about what if all this didnt happen would things still be the same? Would we still be hanging out?

So Honest and truly am sorry that i have cause you so pain in your life. Im sorry for destroying a friendship we once had. Im sorry for making it seem like i didnt care about your feelings. Im Sorry for everything i have done to you.