something i have to do for myself

[rembrantq]

wow. i had such an amazing weekend. friday night was the most fun i've had any time before in my life. i'm glad shes found you to keep her safe. saturday night, i saw say anything, who are awesome. i wish i could write songs as well as max bemis, hes so good. after the show, erin drove me around to different places just to hang out and talk. that was my favorite part of the weekend, just because shes amazing. she taught me so much, i'm so glad to have her.

i'm learning so much about myself, i feel really scared. i don't want to find something i really don't like. i'm still so lost, i don't even know what the end even looks like. i'm scared of that too. i feel like disappearing for a really long time. i want to be real. all i really want is to be real, i want to finally belong where i am.

thanks so much erin, i would be absolutely hopeless without you.
i'm never gonna forget this weekend.