scattered thoughts
i still sadens me
the ones that have mattered to me most in my life and still do
dont even know i exist anymore
everything i had is striped away
i still get this empty feeling
i cant date anymore...i wont let myself
i cant trust women anymore
it sucks to be ignored but theres nothing i can do about that right now
why didnt i just stay in virginia?
i could have had it all
a new start in life
a girlfriend
lots of friends
but i had to get draged back down here...
god i hate it here
its so...god i dont even know a word for it
its like hell to me
i hate everyone and everything here
well..except a few...
i just want to find my own little island off the charts and move there
peace and quiet
no one to bother me
:sighs: sounds nice
i wonder if anyone will even read this...i meen..whos left that even cares that i wright?
josh...?
haynie??
wow..a whole two..
well at least i got my car...
i put a new cold air intake on it...got a cool shifty nob..and now i have a muffler on the way..maby ill get into this and just forget everything
god i hate to be alone
...
stephanies going to come get her stuff some time soon..that kills things for me even more..
i dont even want to look at her face...and jenn..jenns broken a lot of promises to me lately..
:is it just me or do all my problems revolve arround women:
mmm..
i want to go driving right now...but i dont have the gas money to spare..
i have to start work in about eight hours... god...why?..god damn people and their ignorance..
GOD DAMN OLD LADIES ON PROSAC LAUGHING LIKE FUCKING POPEYE AT EVERYTHING WE DO...
i shall smash you all
:plays with mustache:
sleep now...
maby ill dream of something nice..
it used to be kelly...but what now?
guess ill have to find out
the ones that have mattered to me most in my life and still do
dont even know i exist anymore
everything i had is striped away
i still get this empty feeling
i cant date anymore...i wont let myself
i cant trust women anymore
it sucks to be ignored but theres nothing i can do about that right now
why didnt i just stay in virginia?
i could have had it all
a new start in life
a girlfriend
lots of friends
but i had to get draged back down here...
god i hate it here
its so...god i dont even know a word for it
its like hell to me
i hate everyone and everything here
well..except a few...
i just want to find my own little island off the charts and move there
peace and quiet
no one to bother me
:sighs: sounds nice
i wonder if anyone will even read this...i meen..whos left that even cares that i wright?
josh...?
haynie??
wow..a whole two..
well at least i got my car...
i put a new cold air intake on it...got a cool shifty nob..and now i have a muffler on the way..maby ill get into this and just forget everything
god i hate to be alone
...
stephanies going to come get her stuff some time soon..that kills things for me even more..
i dont even want to look at her face...and jenn..jenns broken a lot of promises to me lately..
:is it just me or do all my problems revolve arround women:
mmm..
i want to go driving right now...but i dont have the gas money to spare..
i have to start work in about eight hours... god...why?..god damn people and their ignorance..
GOD DAMN OLD LADIES ON PROSAC LAUGHING LIKE FUCKING POPEYE AT EVERYTHING WE DO...
i shall smash you all
:plays with mustache:
sleep now...
maby ill dream of something nice..
it used to be kelly...but what now?
guess ill have to find out