Thoughts
I wish just once everything was perfect.
But the world is never perfect
Instead it runs a cycle, a pattern, love, life, death, pain, happiness. None ever come without the others, everything flows into a single stream.
I wish I could understand the world.
But the world is not understandable
At least...the World's people are not understandable.
Friends are hard to come bye.
At least the one's that you can trust and trust you back.
I've said good bye to too many that are those few really good ones.
I almost look forward to college, isn't that were everyone has to deal with exactly what I've been through? Maybe then someone can understand. How can you know what its like to always be the stranger without being in that stranger's place?
College places everyone away from their friends, although maybe not by 3000 miles like I've had to, but its still the same. Everyone has to start anew, they all see how it is trying to be the stranger, but its different. In college, Everyone is the stranger outside the window looking in. In college, there is no already established heirarchy that you have to find a place in. In college I might be trusted...
Life is bad. Life is good. All it takes is one person to shoot up my day, or crash it like an aeroplane. Yesterday I rose into the atmosphere and then crashed into hell, then got somewhere in between. Thanks to a good friend who balanced the scales.
What matters?
What doesn't?
"I was the child playing with the others that just didn't seem quite right."---Metallica
Why do I feel so alone?
Questions for another day.
Convoluted thinking.
ha Ha just realized that was stream of consciousness :P Damn Ap!
But the world is never perfect
Instead it runs a cycle, a pattern, love, life, death, pain, happiness. None ever come without the others, everything flows into a single stream.
I wish I could understand the world.
But the world is not understandable
At least...the World's people are not understandable.
Friends are hard to come bye.
At least the one's that you can trust and trust you back.
I've said good bye to too many that are those few really good ones.
I almost look forward to college, isn't that were everyone has to deal with exactly what I've been through? Maybe then someone can understand. How can you know what its like to always be the stranger without being in that stranger's place?
College places everyone away from their friends, although maybe not by 3000 miles like I've had to, but its still the same. Everyone has to start anew, they all see how it is trying to be the stranger, but its different. In college, Everyone is the stranger outside the window looking in. In college, there is no already established heirarchy that you have to find a place in. In college I might be trusted...
Life is bad. Life is good. All it takes is one person to shoot up my day, or crash it like an aeroplane. Yesterday I rose into the atmosphere and then crashed into hell, then got somewhere in between. Thanks to a good friend who balanced the scales.
What matters?
What doesn't?
"I was the child playing with the others that just didn't seem quite right."---Metallica
Why do I feel so alone?
Questions for another day.
Convoluted thinking.
ha Ha just realized that was stream of consciousness :P Damn Ap!