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today ren, patrick, and myself walked to barnes and noble in shorts and flip-flops. we didn't know it was 50 degrees outside and windy. it kinda sucked, but in a really funny way.
i finally got some sleep today from around noon to 5ish and now i'm refreshed to pull another all-nighter cleaning my room and packing before i leave at six in the morning. since my dad is picking me up i'm going to have to hang out in san antonio for a few nights. i plan to sleep, play playstation, and actually eat some real food.
oh, and i'm going to pennyslvannia next week to visit my great grandmother one last time, apparently she isn't doing that well, so i won't be in town until christmas eve, which also happens my brother's birthday. this will be the first time i go to pennsylvania during the winter. my memories of that place are all in the summer. this time will be really wierd.
it doesn't feel like christmas at all this year. i never really cared much for the holiday itself, but for some reason it has always been one of my favorite times of the year. but now that isn't even there. the nostalgia that drove whatever love i had for this season is dead all of a sudden. i ate a candy cane for the first time in years. nothing. i have a tiny fake little christmas tree in my room. again nothing. i even resorted to the soundtrack to the charlie brown christmas special. nothing whatsoever.
i thought about the things i really want for christmas. the first thing i thought of was a new wallet. in fact, it's the only thing i thought i could really use, since my one now is a cheap id holder from 8th grade. strange thing is i don't have money to put in a new wallet. i could use some blank cds too. i wish i could completely re-organize my music collection. i also wish my downloaded music was a laptop and not a crappy old PC. i think i'm ocd too, because this nonsense continues to bug me.