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This just sin't fair, I've given up so much of my happiness for other people. People that will never know it and dislike me anyway.
Like, one of you, I could be with your boyfriend now, but I'm not--why? Because I don't want anyone to be hurt like I was. Even though I know you hold other's actions against me.
I still smile at you even though you have what I want but....you're happy and so is everyone else involved. But me. But it helps that you're so happy.
I've given up EVERYTHING any would give up for someone else and you can't give me the one thing I've asked for...
I could tell you off quite easily, but me being annoyed keeps a lot of other people happy.
....I feel like a selfish bitch doing this. But....I just want one thing to go right that depens on someone else going out of their way--not like school, I do well in school on my own, not something else like that...I'm jsut tired of feeling like I'm one of the few that thinks of others happiness. I try and be a good person but sometimes I want to be just as heartless and self-centered as many others.
...Just once, could someone else return the favor I've given and think of my happiness? Or just not hate me for something I never did.
I ask for too much
Like, one of you, I could be with your boyfriend now, but I'm not--why? Because I don't want anyone to be hurt like I was. Even though I know you hold other's actions against me.
I still smile at you even though you have what I want but....you're happy and so is everyone else involved. But me. But it helps that you're so happy.
I've given up EVERYTHING any would give up for someone else and you can't give me the one thing I've asked for...
I could tell you off quite easily, but me being annoyed keeps a lot of other people happy.
....I feel like a selfish bitch doing this. But....I just want one thing to go right that depens on someone else going out of their way--not like school, I do well in school on my own, not something else like that...I'm jsut tired of feeling like I'm one of the few that thinks of others happiness. I try and be a good person but sometimes I want to be just as heartless and self-centered as many others.
...Just once, could someone else return the favor I've given and think of my happiness? Or just not hate me for something I never did.
I ask for too much