friends
this is total bullshit just me thinking out loud and bein a retard so ya
on my bookmark i have a quote
"A constant friend is a thing rare and hard to find." ~Plutarch
whenever i read that i think one of three things depending on my mood
1) i am soo lucky as to have so many constant friends
2) at least i am lucky enough to have found one or two of these so very rare and hard to find things
3) it is so rare and hard to find that i have yet to find one if i ever do at all
more recently however i come to find myself thinking #3
i also find myself wondering y on earth do i hang out with these people??? i am nothing like them and they dont understand me at all and i cant deal with the bs they give me every day
do u ever feel that ur friends aren't compatible with u??? like u just dont fit in with them??? like u guys all just hang out more out of necessity rather than wanting tobe with each other???
or maybe im just some sort of freak who thinks the stupidest things... ya thats most likely me
recently i find myself actually bein comforted by the voices (did u ever think i would say that adam???) rather than by my 'friends'
granted this isnt for all of my friends ... but i gotta admit that most of the time this does apply to a lot of them
or maybe its not so much my friends but more me... maybe im just not meant to fit in... maybe i meant to be solo... but if thats true its awfully lonely... o well no different from where i am now
sometimes i feel as if my friends dont really care about what i have to say... which i dont really blame them for since most of the things that come outta my mouth arent really worth paying attention to... but sometimes i need some1 to just listen to me without interrupting, without judging, and without detachment from me... just... with empathy
but thats practically impossible since no one has been through exactly what i have
... will i ever fit in??? will i ever belong???... sadly i think not...
for now i suppose that my pillow and my tears shall be my only comfort
on my bookmark i have a quote
"A constant friend is a thing rare and hard to find." ~Plutarch
whenever i read that i think one of three things depending on my mood
1) i am soo lucky as to have so many constant friends
2) at least i am lucky enough to have found one or two of these so very rare and hard to find things
3) it is so rare and hard to find that i have yet to find one if i ever do at all
more recently however i come to find myself thinking #3
i also find myself wondering y on earth do i hang out with these people??? i am nothing like them and they dont understand me at all and i cant deal with the bs they give me every day
do u ever feel that ur friends aren't compatible with u??? like u just dont fit in with them??? like u guys all just hang out more out of necessity rather than wanting tobe with each other???
or maybe im just some sort of freak who thinks the stupidest things... ya thats most likely me
recently i find myself actually bein comforted by the voices (did u ever think i would say that adam???) rather than by my 'friends'
granted this isnt for all of my friends ... but i gotta admit that most of the time this does apply to a lot of them
or maybe its not so much my friends but more me... maybe im just not meant to fit in... maybe i meant to be solo... but if thats true its awfully lonely... o well no different from where i am now
sometimes i feel as if my friends dont really care about what i have to say... which i dont really blame them for since most of the things that come outta my mouth arent really worth paying attention to... but sometimes i need some1 to just listen to me without interrupting, without judging, and without detachment from me... just... with empathy
but thats practically impossible since no one has been through exactly what i have
... will i ever fit in??? will i ever belong???... sadly i think not...
for now i suppose that my pillow and my tears shall be my only comfort