What are you waiting for? The truth is running under you.
Me-well it isn't bad to change sometimes
Me-as long as it is for the better
Katy-everything i do is like a persona that i formed of a person i want to be...its not really me...i lost me a long time ago
Me-you aren't really fake... it is called an identity crisis where you are trying to figure out who you are and who you want to be
Katy-and i just hope that i dont change too much to become this bitch...i hope i can at least "fake" being cool
Me-and you are trying to impress other people
Me-and there is nothing wrong with caring about what other people think
Me- but to an extent, there can be
Katy- morroccoXmole (11:08:11 AM):we think you are "fake" acting all wiggerish, and throwing yourself into being something else
Katytheawesome (11:08:52 AM):eh, bitches talk shit
morroccoXmole (11:09:01 AM):see?
Katytheawesome (11:09:13 AM):i am, whom i am
morroccoXmole (11:09:50 AM):and you are not who you claim to be
morroccoXmole (11:10:21 AM):find yourself first, dont be a fool
Me- well as much as it isn't his business, he is kind of right
Katy-yeah, i just dont really know who i am. i dont know how i got this way, or how i wouldve been if i didnt get depressed and tuin my life.
Me-i mean if you could find out who you are then it would be better for you, i think
Katy-im not seriously a "wigger"
Katy-i just joke about it
Me-sweetie, you didn't ruin your life
Me-i know that
Katy-im not passionate about rappng i dont want to be black i couldnt handle the hood
Katy-i sjut use my sense of humor to recreate hip hop culutre
Katy-and what not, but like...i have my whole life to find myself
Katy- deep down, i know that i have extremely high morales
Katy- morales that i havent abided by because ive fallen in line with the rest of society
Katy-i know that im smart, that im funny, that im capable of doing so much
Katy-but i also know that im lazy and stressed and i try too hard. i know that im trying to live my life to the fullest, in an environment where "teh fullest" jsut isnt satisfying to me
Me-well it is good that you know that
Katy- i feel like i sjut want to get out....get away from people. i dont need to find myself, i sjut need to readjust my already known self. i need to respect my own values, and work with what i know and what i care about
Me-people are going to judge you, for the rest of your life
Me- yeah, that is true
Me-like i have known you for a good portion of our lives
Me-you know?
Me-i mean, you've gotten older and changed a little
Me- but when you are around me, i think you act differently
Me-because you don't really feel like you have to impress me
Me-because i love you anyways
Me-i think?
Katy-yeah, kinda id believe
Katy- because you give me a sense of security as a friend that you care
Katy- and you wont stop caring no matter what i do
Katy-because u accept me for my mistakes
Katy- and you help me ifnd the best in them
Katy-like most people, i feel like i have to entertain them
Katy-but i know around you, that if im not amusing you, that you cna entertain yourself
ThIsiSmYsToP21- indeed
Well, I'm glad that she has come to the realization that drinking can harm you. Unfortunately, she learned the hard way. Maybe that is the only way to learn sometimes. Either way, something good has come out of it. I know that being a pessimist is so much easier in life because you are never dissapointed... but being optimistic and finding something good about every situation is something that everyone should try to do, I think. Finding the medium inbetween being a pessimist and being an optimist is nice. =]
Paulson's lyrics are so powerful to me. I don't know where I would be without them.
I had a lot of fun yesterday. I am glad I got to hang out with Lauren and most of "the flying dutchmen". They were fun to hang out with, they just need to be more sociable to other people, lol. We went out to Olive Garden and then followed them to band practice. I took like 230 pictures or something oO! But Lauren and I got invited to go see a scary movie with three guys. Tehe. I think it should be fun. It is a scary movie so we have to have someone to cling on to. Shawn was like I will be your designated clinger on person, if you would like. Hah. I think we should sit boy, girl, boy, girl, boy. Haha. Then Lauren and I will have two people to grab on to. Raddd. Shawn and I also have a dinner and movie night. We're gonna cook dinner together and then watch a movie. It's gonna be rad. I'm glad I have friends that actually enjoy hanging out with me now.
Yay for friends!
So what are you waiting for?
The truth is running under you.
What are you waiting for?
The drive is right in front of you.
What are you waiting for?
The readers judge from over you.
What are you waiting for?
The end is locked inside of you.