who would have ever guessed...
Here I am, making my first real livejournal post in years..
Time is a blur, life is a whirlwind of hyperemotional serendipitous events, and in the end they all balance out to a state of mediocracy... Things turn up for a while, and then they go to shit. Nothing good ever lasts very long in the retrospect of time... If it worked out that way, we wouldn't have any motivation, I guess...
There are so many things I wish I could undo, so many things that if given the opportunity to "do-over", I would.. Chances I wish I would have taken when the brief window of opportunity was actually open...
I suppose I shouldn't complain too much though, I've got a really good job, a good family, and a circle of friends that most people could only dream of having.. Despite all of that, there's forever going to be that one illusive dream that's just barely out of reach... No matter how hard you try, it's right there, taunting you to go on, only to dig yourself into a deeper rut. Fuck dreams. Seriously.
I need to find a new place to live by the first, otherwise I'll be homeless.
...and with that, I'm finished.
One day at a time...
Time is a blur, life is a whirlwind of hyperemotional serendipitous events, and in the end they all balance out to a state of mediocracy... Things turn up for a while, and then they go to shit. Nothing good ever lasts very long in the retrospect of time... If it worked out that way, we wouldn't have any motivation, I guess...
There are so many things I wish I could undo, so many things that if given the opportunity to "do-over", I would.. Chances I wish I would have taken when the brief window of opportunity was actually open...
I suppose I shouldn't complain too much though, I've got a really good job, a good family, and a circle of friends that most people could only dream of having.. Despite all of that, there's forever going to be that one illusive dream that's just barely out of reach... No matter how hard you try, it's right there, taunting you to go on, only to dig yourself into a deeper rut. Fuck dreams. Seriously.
I need to find a new place to live by the first, otherwise I'll be homeless.
...and with that, I'm finished.
One day at a time...