forgetting the fun of the party
rachis party yesterday
fun
pop thrown at jens head
chris
Hi
jake
confusion
hookup
headpain
^random
>i'm a rebound...sux to be me
NightWolf0009: hey...
Scarlet369: hey
NightWolf0009: what's up?
Scarlet369: i'm trying to wakeup from the party and unconfuse myself in the process
NightWolf0009: lol
Scarlet369: uck i'm sick of life...but i had a lot of fun last night and i dont regret it...
NightWolf0009: yea
NightWolf0009: tell me about it...
Scarlet369: no i'd rather not...in fact i'd rather not even think about it
NightWolf0009: yea
Scarlet369: i cant decide if this all a dream or a realy f****d up nightmare
NightWolf0009: lol
Scarlet369: seriously ...i should have been spending time with my friends that i havent seen in forever and just being friendly... i swear to god i look for places to screw up in life
NightWolf0009: lol
Scarlet369: really oh lets let the guy i like hookup with me even though i know I'm just a rebound ... great idea Tressa you deserve a metal
NightWolf0009: hmm
NightWolf0009: so tell me more about how amy reacted to that yesterday...
Scarlet369: I'm gunna have severe mental problems when i get older//// i think she likes you
Scarlet369: i dont really know i didnt talk to her much
NightWolf0009: well, i'll help ya out...
NightWolf0009: i know about hairy messes in the brain... lol
NightWolf0009: i'm helpin jake pretty good, from what he tells me...
Scarlet369: yea everyone is helping out jake.. but me and it seems like everyone else knows whats going through jakes head but me and now cat likes him and i'm sure he probably likes cat and cats confused and she doesnt understand how hard it is to be in my shoes right now....and on top of that i know that last night was all just reboiund and i should be smart enough to say stop you need to get over michele and just have sat and talked with him..but no i'm the dumb ass who lets the guy she likes rebound off her...
Scarlet369: so he can go find someother girl and leave me in the shadows again
NightWolf0009: hmm
Scarlet369: sry i'm too confusing and annoying and i complain too much
NightWolf0009: no ya don't
Scarlet369: i wish someone could tell me exactly what i should do and that i could know whats going through jakes head... i wish that i could watch jake decide he doenst like me dn go be with someone else and i wish i could be a good supportive friend and help him with his problems but i cant i cant just turn away and pretend that i dont like him i wish i could but theres just somethings you wont let yourself do
Scarlet369: and*
NightWolf0009: yea
NightWolf0009: it's a complicated situation
Scarlet369: no shit
NightWolf0009: well i am trying to help 2 of you guys...
NightWolf0009: and if the wrong information (which may or may not be accurate) gets around to the wrong person, it could be disasterous...
Scarlet369: mm
NightWolf0009: so i have to withhold a lot of information... i don't want to be responsable for killing anyone's friendships, or throwing them into a depression similar to what i've experienced...
Scarlet369: the thing is i'm smart enough to know that th id probably isnt going anywhere... it not like its the first time i've ever went through this...i'm also smart enough to give him his space... he's always gunna be my friend i cant afford to lose any friends i just wish that i could look into my future and figure out if we're always gunna be just friends or not..
NightWolf0009: hmm
NightWolf0009: yea, that's a tough one...
NightWolf0009: well how many friends do you have that you trust with everything?
Scarlet369: with everything... i'd say like 4ish you rach michele jake and cat... but this subject is really hard to talk about with jake and cat right now
NightWolf0009: yea
NightWolf0009: well as long as you have one, that's really all you need
Scarlet369: mmm...no i dont think like that losing a friend is like losing a part of my life... i mean me and bri not being good friends anymore is really diffucult i woiuld die to lose jake and/or cat
NightWolf0009: yea...
NightWolf0009: i know
NightWolf0009: well, you've got me
Scarlet369: i know better then this i know better then to even think about whats gunna happen..to just move on and let it go and realize that him being just my friends is just as good as anything and that if we dont get together i wasnt ment to be
Scarlet369: and yes i've got you and you are a good listener
Scarlet369: uck...
NightWolf0009: ?
Scarlet369: nothing i just feel crappy and everyone is getting too involved with this and now noone can give me advice cuz everyones afraid to offend me and it sux cuz i shouldnt have got anyone else involved especially not cat
NightWolf0009: well i'm here...
NightWolf0009: and the only advice i can give you is to hang in there, wait and see what happens, and in the meantime, try looking elsewhere for someone, incase things dont' quite work out
Scarlet369: because they arent going to the sucky thing is there isnt anywhere else to loojk believe me i've been trying since november
Scarlet369: ish
NightWolf0009: i've been trying for 4 years... and i've only found 2
Scarlet369: :-\
NightWolf0009: well you do have to have more faith in yourself...
NightWolf0009: because, when you look somewhere else, no one knows you... they just see a brilliant young woman who seems to be happy and alone...
NightWolf0009: and they want a piece of that...
NightWolf0009: but you do have to be careful... not everyone's like me, or dave, or coma
NightWolf0009: a hell of alot of 'em want to just get beneath your belt...
NightWolf0009: and it's hard...
Scarlet369: i know
Scarlet369: yea well if i coulda had chris or jake forever i would have... and while i'm looking i look for guys who have qualities like you and coma but it's not the easy to find guy like that BELIEVE ME
NightWolf0009: yea
NightWolf0009: i've found that it's been hard to find such qualities too
Scarlet369: lol
Scarlet369: i'm pathetic
NightWolf0009: nahh...
NightWolf0009: i dont' think so
Scarlet369: ok i do
NightWolf0009: now don't talk like that...:
fun
pop thrown at jens head
chris
Hi
jake
confusion
hookup
headpain
^random
>i'm a rebound...sux to be me
NightWolf0009: hey...
Scarlet369: hey
NightWolf0009: what's up?
Scarlet369: i'm trying to wakeup from the party and unconfuse myself in the process
NightWolf0009: lol
Scarlet369: uck i'm sick of life...but i had a lot of fun last night and i dont regret it...
NightWolf0009: yea
NightWolf0009: tell me about it...
Scarlet369: no i'd rather not...in fact i'd rather not even think about it
NightWolf0009: yea
Scarlet369: i cant decide if this all a dream or a realy f****d up nightmare
NightWolf0009: lol
Scarlet369: seriously ...i should have been spending time with my friends that i havent seen in forever and just being friendly... i swear to god i look for places to screw up in life
NightWolf0009: lol
Scarlet369: really oh lets let the guy i like hookup with me even though i know I'm just a rebound ... great idea Tressa you deserve a metal
NightWolf0009: hmm
NightWolf0009: so tell me more about how amy reacted to that yesterday...
Scarlet369: I'm gunna have severe mental problems when i get older//// i think she likes you
Scarlet369: i dont really know i didnt talk to her much
NightWolf0009: well, i'll help ya out...
NightWolf0009: i know about hairy messes in the brain... lol
NightWolf0009: i'm helpin jake pretty good, from what he tells me...
Scarlet369: yea everyone is helping out jake.. but me and it seems like everyone else knows whats going through jakes head but me and now cat likes him and i'm sure he probably likes cat and cats confused and she doesnt understand how hard it is to be in my shoes right now....and on top of that i know that last night was all just reboiund and i should be smart enough to say stop you need to get over michele and just have sat and talked with him..but no i'm the dumb ass who lets the guy she likes rebound off her...
Scarlet369: so he can go find someother girl and leave me in the shadows again
NightWolf0009: hmm
Scarlet369: sry i'm too confusing and annoying and i complain too much
NightWolf0009: no ya don't
Scarlet369: i wish someone could tell me exactly what i should do and that i could know whats going through jakes head... i wish that i could watch jake decide he doenst like me dn go be with someone else and i wish i could be a good supportive friend and help him with his problems but i cant i cant just turn away and pretend that i dont like him i wish i could but theres just somethings you wont let yourself do
Scarlet369: and*
NightWolf0009: yea
NightWolf0009: it's a complicated situation
Scarlet369: no shit
NightWolf0009: well i am trying to help 2 of you guys...
NightWolf0009: and if the wrong information (which may or may not be accurate) gets around to the wrong person, it could be disasterous...
Scarlet369: mm
NightWolf0009: so i have to withhold a lot of information... i don't want to be responsable for killing anyone's friendships, or throwing them into a depression similar to what i've experienced...
Scarlet369: the thing is i'm smart enough to know that th id probably isnt going anywhere... it not like its the first time i've ever went through this...i'm also smart enough to give him his space... he's always gunna be my friend i cant afford to lose any friends i just wish that i could look into my future and figure out if we're always gunna be just friends or not..
NightWolf0009: hmm
NightWolf0009: yea, that's a tough one...
NightWolf0009: well how many friends do you have that you trust with everything?
Scarlet369: with everything... i'd say like 4ish you rach michele jake and cat... but this subject is really hard to talk about with jake and cat right now
NightWolf0009: yea
NightWolf0009: well as long as you have one, that's really all you need
Scarlet369: mmm...no i dont think like that losing a friend is like losing a part of my life... i mean me and bri not being good friends anymore is really diffucult i woiuld die to lose jake and/or cat
NightWolf0009: yea...
NightWolf0009: i know
NightWolf0009: well, you've got me
Scarlet369: i know better then this i know better then to even think about whats gunna happen..to just move on and let it go and realize that him being just my friends is just as good as anything and that if we dont get together i wasnt ment to be
Scarlet369: and yes i've got you and you are a good listener
Scarlet369: uck...
NightWolf0009: ?
Scarlet369: nothing i just feel crappy and everyone is getting too involved with this and now noone can give me advice cuz everyones afraid to offend me and it sux cuz i shouldnt have got anyone else involved especially not cat
NightWolf0009: well i'm here...
NightWolf0009: and the only advice i can give you is to hang in there, wait and see what happens, and in the meantime, try looking elsewhere for someone, incase things dont' quite work out
Scarlet369: because they arent going to the sucky thing is there isnt anywhere else to loojk believe me i've been trying since november
Scarlet369: ish
NightWolf0009: i've been trying for 4 years... and i've only found 2
Scarlet369: :-\
NightWolf0009: well you do have to have more faith in yourself...
NightWolf0009: because, when you look somewhere else, no one knows you... they just see a brilliant young woman who seems to be happy and alone...
NightWolf0009: and they want a piece of that...
NightWolf0009: but you do have to be careful... not everyone's like me, or dave, or coma
NightWolf0009: a hell of alot of 'em want to just get beneath your belt...
NightWolf0009: and it's hard...
Scarlet369: i know
Scarlet369: yea well if i coulda had chris or jake forever i would have... and while i'm looking i look for guys who have qualities like you and coma but it's not the easy to find guy like that BELIEVE ME
NightWolf0009: yea
NightWolf0009: i've found that it's been hard to find such qualities too
Scarlet369: lol
Scarlet369: i'm pathetic
NightWolf0009: nahh...
NightWolf0009: i dont' think so
Scarlet369: ok i do
NightWolf0009: now don't talk like that...: