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[relientkforlife]

hey its me again. i guess since my last post i have felt like i have been a total downer on everything and everyone. IM SORRY GUYS!!!!!!!!!! thats not how i want to be i want to be happy. and i am begining to again. so today was sweet, i got up ran and then went to drivers ed. from there i went driving for 2 hours, my first time on the expressway.

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jacqueline

[anonymous]

man. you just pretty much summed up my life. thats me too. 100%. i think about things more than i should and then let them get to me and its like sometimes i think i needed to and then others i wish i hadnt. it sucks sometimes because its like people will tell you "oh just dont LET it get to you, dont LET it bother you, STOP thinking about it..." but how? i mean honestly. its like you said. once those thoughts are there theyre just stuck. they cant go away until its resolved, and over half the time with me at least i know its most definately NOT resolved. and the worst thing is when you think itll NEVER be resolved. and then it just gets to you more. and then your mad at yourself for it getting to you so much. and you wonder whats wrong with me? do other people do this? am i crazy? you get the point. its insane. its a neverending issue in your mind. and then the losing sleep thing.. oh my gosh dont even get me started. i lose sleep over thinking pretty close to every night. you just sit there in your bed worrying over whatever it is for what doesnt actually seem to be too long and then you look over at the clock and its 3am and you have to get up in a couple hours. and heres the worst.. you lose even MORE sleep thinking about that. what the heck? ugh. i could go on forever and a day talking about this. the point though was pretty much just to tell you that you are not alone.

love you tons.

call me when your home from pontiac.

<3