tired of my heart breaking
i am tired of my heart breaking every sleepless night listening to my child scream from pain or from him itching himself to the point of bleeding when i go to pick him up in from his crib and find a puddle of his blood from him awakening himself with said scratches. no mom should have to deal wwith this kind of shit
my arm is covered in blood cause he scractched his ear open AGAIN and i feel like there is no hope in sight
i just want to cry.
Granted it could be worse and i know it but i am so tired of feeling guilty or scared of leaving him with someone and him having an allergic reaction and having some one else deal with what i have had almost every night for the last 6 months
being a parent is tough
being a parent with a child with allergies or any health problems is even tougher
i feel at a loss and i just need to spill it out
i am going to start to go see my couselor ann again
i have been feeling lost and that i don't have a steady ear other than my husband to talk to
i don't know if there ismore to seeing her other than me needing a healthy dose of reality in my insanity of a mind but either way i need to get it somewhere as of late there has been a lack of stability on many parts on the people i have found myself unable to rely on
this weekend was marty's birthday and it was a wonderful night we chilled went to fan 4 and cuddled made out while liam was at my mom's and than role played with our friends today
i love my husband and i don't know what i would do with out him
my arm is covered in blood cause he scractched his ear open AGAIN and i feel like there is no hope in sight
i just want to cry.
Granted it could be worse and i know it but i am so tired of feeling guilty or scared of leaving him with someone and him having an allergic reaction and having some one else deal with what i have had almost every night for the last 6 months
being a parent is tough
being a parent with a child with allergies or any health problems is even tougher
i feel at a loss and i just need to spill it out
i am going to start to go see my couselor ann again
i have been feeling lost and that i don't have a steady ear other than my husband to talk to
i don't know if there ismore to seeing her other than me needing a healthy dose of reality in my insanity of a mind but either way i need to get it somewhere as of late there has been a lack of stability on many parts on the people i have found myself unable to rely on
this weekend was marty's birthday and it was a wonderful night we chilled went to fan 4 and cuddled made out while liam was at my mom's and than role played with our friends today
i love my husband and i don't know what i would do with out him