If it ended tonight, Id still see the morning

Aug 26, 2007 10:11

Im alive now, and theres nothing anyone can do**

I am capable of doing anything and if its possible within my power, I can go anywhere.

Ive had reoccuring dreams of dissapearing, not in the depressing sense, more so in the realistic sense. Ill pack my things, scrounge up a few dollars, get a full tank of gas and hit the road. If I felt like it, I d cut my hair and change my name and live as someone completely different for an entire year.

Lord knows that such events would really open my eyes and mind, I could really get down to some good, solid writing. Id start by going out west, Out to california, Id wanna see the other ocean. Id live in my car right by the beach for a week or 2. Id write about how open the sky seems, or quite possibly how the ocean smells different. But dont get me wrong, I wouldnt just stay by the beautiful ocean, Id journey through the smog filled cities. Id let that poision of society and venom from the sky fill my lungs and eyes.

Id live in arizona for the better part of a month, not just for the amber deserts and thought provoking landscapes...But for the night. Id live on the roof of my car at night looking up at a completely open sky. Where no light posions the darkness and every star is in sight. Id map out a course across the sky, less I forget how I got to where I was.

Seattle would seem like home to me. I love the rain and that city does nothung but rain. Everyone is sullen and hole ridden with faithless resolve, but Id come in jumping and humming in the rain. Id never use an umbrella, id let the love Ive always had set into my skin. And the smell of rain, Id take it in until I drowned.

Id drive along the coast of the great lakes soaking in what ever stories they have tell. That salt and evergreen would make me numb to anything else i nthis world.

When Id come back, if youd see me, would I be the same?..Would you accept that?

It wouldnt really matter if yu did or not, because that would be the first time in my life that I did something right and held onto it. Ive had moments like these, but the thought of losing them filled me with fear, so why hold on to something that will hurt you in he end?

Thats simple....you hold on so you.........
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