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I said I’d swear off love, but it is depressing being alone. And I miss Riiko more than ever. She’s still my best friend even if she’s not my girlfriend. When you’ve loved someone for so long, that it doesn’t matter if you’re happy, but they are even if they are with someone else, you have to just step away, right? I suppose I just miss having someone close to take care of, more than just it being Riiko. She was rather hopeless without me, really. But of course now she has someone else, and that’s fine…
… I’ve been thinking about it, and what am I really going to do with magic? Perhaps I should quit school and just move back with my family in Spain (Leaving Misaki alone with dad… honestly, what have I done?), but I don’t like thinking of leaving school early. Even with Riiko, I fought to keep her even though I knew I was fighting a losing battle. So now, I don’t know what should I do. Admit defeat and leave school? It’s not like I have long ‘til I graduate anyway. I could hold on out, get my NEWTs.. and… I don’t know. I just don’t.
[OoC: I keep thinking I should drop Soushi. And Azuma too, but like I love them too muc h and I don’t want to. But it’s dreadfully boring, because they don’t have a plot. I can probably hold on to Azuma some more, because he’s just too fun to play, but Soushi… he’s just often wishy-washy and/or grumpy. T-T Soushi does desperately needs someone.
Oh and Soushi actually meant to put this on private, but forgot to.]