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I see you so clearly sometimes I really beleive that I can touch you
I reach out
My fingers shake but the air is light,... welcoming
My eyes are closed perhaps for the moment, or because they must be
Breathing comes like I might never be able to breathe again
I'm not sure what this is
Is it a feeling?
It is an emotion?
Or is this just how its supposed to be?
Not quiet sure now, but not caring
There is a sensation that washes over me
My heart feels heavy
Your presence is all around me
Yet my fingers still play with air
My eyes still shut
I'm not opening them
I swear
I just want to be here
Waiting
and at the same time, time stands still
Why can't things stay like this?
Half suspended between worlds
This isn't levitation
or some meditation
This is real,
my heart can't be left open in any other trance
Only before You can I stand here
Loving this wait
Feeling it
Living it